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kerpingtack) wrote2007-05-13 03:48 am
kerpingtack) wrote2007-05-13 03:48 am
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fucking hormones
I looked at the wiki page for Mary and in the sidebar:
Sam Winchester (son, deceased)
And in contrast:
Dean Winchester (son)
AND NOW I'M CRYING A LITTLE. Just a little. And I think of how limp Sam was and Dean reaching to feel his back and I'm crying a little more. And somehow this leads to how horrible their lives are, that Sam is ALL Dean has because everything else has been taken away or never given to him, and Dean is all Sam has and he was so HAPPY to see him and if Sam's gone Dean is just alone. With his life bleak and empty, years of it, and he won't live it, he doesn't want to.
And Andy died too.
Everything else. It broke my brain.
Sam Winchester (son, deceased)
And in contrast:
Dean Winchester (son)
AND NOW I'M CRYING A LITTLE. Just a little. And I think of how limp Sam was and Dean reaching to feel his back and I'm crying a little more. And somehow this leads to how horrible their lives are, that Sam is ALL Dean has because everything else has been taken away or never given to him, and Dean is all Sam has and he was so HAPPY to see him and if Sam's gone Dean is just alone. With his life bleak and empty, years of it, and he won't live it, he doesn't want to.
And Andy died too.
Everything else. It broke my brain.