Thanks for the hug. *internet-hugs back* I'm sorry you've been going through some rough times too; I have had a comment in progress open in a tab for a week trying to think of something more helpful than "Yeah, me too." I'm wishing you all the best though!
It is SUPER TERRIBLE, and more so because thinking about it makes it worse, and yet you can't NOT think about it. It's EVERYWHERE. Phone calls are terrible, ordering food is terrible, check-out lines are terrible, strangers are terrible, acquaintances are terrible, adults are terrible, parent's friends are terrible, relatives are terrible (I am still scared of my aunts for fuck's sake and I see them multiple times every year)... man I was supposed to go to the bank today but my mom didn't give me sufficient warning (barely a day!!) so I... didn't.........
I know that lots of people also have these excruciating troubles, but there's still a part of me that stubbornly rejects this, like THIS CANNOT BE TRUE, I NEVER SEE ANYONE ELSE FAILING LIKE ME. But that's because all those people are also indoors all day, scared to walk around outside! I assume that everyone around me knows what they're doing because it's too weird to think that there are no examples to follow or no secret script. Very bizarre.
I hid in my Dad's kitchen the other weekend just to avoid having to make small talk with some neighbour and his two young kids. SOMETIMES KIDS ARE THE WORST. I'm getting better at uhh not being afraid of interacting with children, but I used to be incredibly intimidated by kids. Like they were judging me really harshly or something, worse than adults and almost as bad as peers. I don't know.
And omg I have BEEN in your taxi story. Especially the part about the directions (I am especially skilled at telling people to go the EXACT OPPOSITE WAY) and pretending to take a call. OMG I have faked soooo many phone calls over the course of my young life. I have probably faked more calls than I've taken real calls. I have also faked sleeping in cars many many times to escape potential conversation. One of the worst times was when I had to drive with my friend and his mom and his brother for like two hours. OH GOD OTHER PEOPLE'S PARENTS. ;____;
I feel like I've been traumatized by life or something because I keep having terrible flashbacks to every slightly embarrassing thing I've ever done. The shit at my mom's office has been added to this impressive canon. One guy actually said, "See? It's impossible," to a co-worker who was trying to talk to me. ;___; I do not mean to be impossible, you fucking asshole, goddamn!!
Thanks again. Believe me when I say that you are a superbomb of amazingness and I feel [insert cheesy emotion] to know you. *awkward punch to the shoulder*
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It is SUPER TERRIBLE, and more so because thinking about it makes it worse, and yet you can't NOT think about it. It's EVERYWHERE. Phone calls are terrible, ordering food is terrible, check-out lines are terrible, strangers are terrible, acquaintances are terrible, adults are terrible, parent's friends are terrible, relatives are terrible (I am still scared of my aunts for fuck's sake and I see them multiple times every year)... man I was supposed to go to the bank today but my mom didn't give me sufficient warning (barely a day!!) so I... didn't.........
I know that lots of people also have these excruciating troubles, but there's still a part of me that stubbornly rejects this, like THIS CANNOT BE TRUE, I NEVER SEE ANYONE ELSE FAILING LIKE ME. But that's because all those people are also indoors all day, scared to walk around outside! I assume that everyone around me knows what they're doing because it's too weird to think that there are no examples to follow or no secret script. Very bizarre.
I hid in my Dad's kitchen the other weekend just to avoid having to make small talk with some neighbour and his two young kids.
SOMETIMES KIDS ARE THE WORST. I'm getting better at uhh not being afraid of interacting with children, but I used to be incredibly intimidated by kids. Like they were judging me really harshly or something, worse than adults and almost as bad as peers. I don't know.
And omg I have BEEN in your taxi story. Especially the part about the directions (I am especially skilled at telling people to go the EXACT OPPOSITE WAY) and pretending to take a call. OMG I have faked soooo many phone calls over the course of my young life. I have probably faked more calls than I've taken real calls. I have also faked sleeping in cars many many times to escape potential conversation. One of the worst times was when I had to drive with my friend and his mom and his brother for like two hours. OH GOD OTHER PEOPLE'S PARENTS. ;____;
I feel like I've been traumatized by life or something because I keep having terrible flashbacks to every slightly embarrassing thing I've ever done. The shit at my mom's office has been added to this impressive canon. One guy actually said, "See? It's impossible," to a co-worker who was trying to talk to me. ;___; I do not mean to be impossible, you fucking asshole, goddamn!!
Thanks again. Believe me when I say that you are a superbomb of amazingness and I feel [insert cheesy emotion] to know you. *awkward punch to the shoulder*