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counting at war ([personal profile] kerpingtack) wrote2013-03-14 01:37 pm
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making sure that all the world is coming down

un-privating old unfinished entries because they are never going to get finished. I am positive that I had stuff to talk about, and equally positive that my head is just a sieve. Or a wicker basket with no handles, and every time I try to put something new in, something else falls out, and when I stoop down to pick it up, something else falls out. And I can't let anything go so instead of straightening up and walking forward like a normal person, I'm just stooping over constantly. WOW I AM KING GOOD AT METAPHORRS

How much of caring is habit? (Someone make every word a different font, slap that on a pastel background, and post it to tumblr.) But really. I want to think that caring is just pure emotion, but it's a choice. And sometimes I do think that feelings follow actions, in that if you decide not to do things, the emotions associated with that just never emerge. I become less interested in SHINee/kpop fandom by the day. I still really like them but it's hard to stay interested when everything depresses me. Fandom is only going to get worse.