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kerpingtack) wrote2010-09-03 05:16 am
kerpingtack) wrote2010-09-03 05:16 am
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The paper is due in three days and I'm not ready!!
What is wrong with my life. I'm so nervous and anxious all the time now. I barely want to speak because I'm afraid of jinxing myself.
Just to ensure that I will never again do anything productive, I am fantasizing about winning the lottery. Oh my god. I get the vapors just thinking about paying back loans and punching all the debt collectors who call the house in the balls. Also I would really like to crush my asshole landlord like a bug. Maybe I could buy wherever he was living and become his asshole landlord and flip out over everything and yell at his mom for no reason too. Ahhh life.
I can't wait to see Inception because then I'll have soooo much stuff to read. That's the way it is. I wonder what new white boy paradise will become the next fandom virus?! Naw, I do want to see Inception for itself, not just its fandom, even though it looks like a sausage fest and everyone is white except for like two dudes. I like shit about dreams and memory, and I like JGL and Ellen Page, and I looooooooove Leo DiCaprio even with his hair shellacked like that.
I'm so dumb and petty. I hate when my sister wears any clothes that I specifically think of as "mine." It's not fair, she already looks good in everything, why does she take my things? Today she wore a shirt that I was saving for some imaginary special occasion and I was dying of jealousy. She just wore it casually too. Urgh. PETTY AND DUMB. When am I going to get over shit like this? Grow the fuck up, self.
Also, why is it so fucking hot. It's five in the morning. UGH.
What is wrong with my life. I'm so nervous and anxious all the time now. I barely want to speak because I'm afraid of jinxing myself.
Just to ensure that I will never again do anything productive, I am fantasizing about winning the lottery. Oh my god. I get the vapors just thinking about paying back loans and punching all the debt collectors who call the house in the balls. Also I would really like to crush my asshole landlord like a bug. Maybe I could buy wherever he was living and become his asshole landlord and flip out over everything and yell at his mom for no reason too. Ahhh life.
I can't wait to see Inception because then I'll have soooo much stuff to read. That's the way it is. I wonder what new white boy paradise will become the next fandom virus?! Naw, I do want to see Inception for itself, not just its fandom, even though it looks like a sausage fest and everyone is white except for like two dudes. I like shit about dreams and memory, and I like JGL and Ellen Page, and I looooooooove Leo DiCaprio even with his hair shellacked like that.
I'm so dumb and petty. I hate when my sister wears any clothes that I specifically think of as "mine." It's not fair, she already looks good in everything, why does she take my things? Today she wore a shirt that I was saving for some imaginary special occasion and I was dying of jealousy. She just wore it casually too. Urgh. PETTY AND DUMB. When am I going to get over shit like this? Grow the fuck up, self.
Also, why is it so fucking hot. It's five in the morning. UGH.