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- I'm throwing myself into a sea of love right now and there are a million tabs open omg so many things, SO MANY THINGS. It is insane how perfectly, PERFECTLY perfect he is to me. Flawless from every angle of his being omg. I really can't handle how much I love him. He's just so...!! Also, I am pleased that Immortal Song 2 ships jongho kekekeke omg what has this stanning done to me.
- I think part of the limpness of kpop fics is that people are unwilling to give their characters problems? Like emotional/personality-based ones, not just romantic pursuit type problems. It's a lot of describing or setting up scenarios. I'm rereading my favorite bandom fics and I think the emphasis on emotional arcs, personal histories, how difficult these personalities can be, etc. made those stories really compelling to me. Need more of that shit. I guess maybe because kpop itself is such escapist fantasy that the fics don't seem to situate them in the real world? Also because of cultural differences? Question mark? 
- this thought hit me like a sack of brick last week while I was shelving in the library~: procrastination is not about schoolwork, it's about my whole life. after I'm done with school I'm still going to have this issue where I just put off shit and back myself into corners so I'm either forced to go through with it all at once or sink/drown/die. inescapable self!
- SNSD's album is rly geat for me. There's so much Sunny!! Bad Girl, youaholic, and the Great Escape are my favorites from the new songs. Taeyeon thrashing about being a tiny rock star dudette is so amazingly charming. She sounded amazeballs at the concert too. And the dance line all sounded really really good in their solos, especially Hyoyeon and Yuri. Ahhhhh soshiiiiiiiiiiiiii <3___<3
- I made my sister watch Jonghyun's perfomance of A Million Roses and she said that I have chosen well and she will approve if I marry him. kekekeke ommmmmmmg why am I so obvious and unable to control myself, everyone around me knows that I want to kidnap Jonghyun and make him my child bride. lol wat, who said that? But the day before yesterday we also had this conversation:
me: Can you indulge me a little?
her: Um...  alright.
me: *pulling up fancam* It's only 26 seconds long.
her: But your 26 second videos are the worst ones.
I can't argue that. ;~~; But he's so fancammable. What does that mean? idk. JONGHYUN.

edit @ 3:55pm 
omg where is everyone, I need someone to validate my existence right now.

I really like that idol singing show. It's good to see the different performance styles and song ~interpretations. For me the ranking for the tournament part was Hyorin (undeniable), Jonghyun, Changmin, IU, Yoseob/Yesung. idk Yoseob is fine but sounds outclassed to me. I wonder how much they have a say in how expansive their stages are. The slower/quieter songs seem like they're at a disadvantage performance-wise unless it's really dramatic I guess. The audience is like a sea of ahjummas lol. And so many people tearing up at all the boring ballads. Ugh the way the show is set up is dumb as fuck. I know it's to make it more suspenseful, but omg I hate reality competition show suspense SO MUCH (fucking SYTCD omfg) and it just stirs up unnecessary fandom drama. It makes sense for determining the winner but not for the rest of the ranking. Like for example for today's show it looks like Hyorin > IU/Yoseob/Changmin > Jonghyun > Yesung, but it really depends on who was matched with who for everyone below Hyorin.

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[elapses.livejournal.com]

I think part of the limpness of kpop fics is that people are unwilling to give their characters problems? Like emotional/personality-based ones, not just romantic pursuit type problems.
Oh my god you hit the nail on the head, everything makes sense now. I feel like everything is so much about the visual presentation of the story (both figuratively and literally, figuratively as in the flowery language and literally as in NEVER HAVE I SEEN A FANDOM CARE SO MUCH ABOUT CENTERBLOCKING/whether or not lapslock is aesthetically pleasing) and meanwhile there is so rarely an actual story. Not that there aren't exceptions, but. There aren't many exceptions?

[counttheplanes.livejournal.com]

lol I spend WAY TOO MUCH time wondering why kpop fandom is the way it is. It just doesn't make sense to me! Why is it so joyless and stilted so much of the time?? LOOK AT OUR SOURCE MATERIAL!!

I guess people are really committed to the imagery of kpop before anything else. Or that they're SO emotionally invested that they don't want to really write... or see... the characters do anything emotionally messy. OR SOMETHING. I'm so mystified honestly.

No, there really aren't that many exceptions lol. I think I've changed my ~orientation toward fic because of how this fandom is structured. It's kind of like ummm ~take what you can get~ a lot of the time lol. ;~;

[elapses.livejournal.com]

Because it is a weird and mystifying entity! It doesn't follow any of the usual rules of fandom! It just kind of waddles along and does its own weird thing.

Yeah which I guess makes sense in an odd way, since kpop IS imagery, really. All it really gives you is faces and vague impressions of personality, so maybe it makes sense that they get molded into escapist fantasy writing? Or, yeah, too afraid to write about ~their favorite~ being anything too off. I feel like every other fandom knew that the best fic came out of emotional messiness, though :/

I am the same though! My rules about what I would read used to be much more stringent, now I just... deal with it :(

[counttheplanes.livejournal.com]

lol this fandom really is something else. I've never seen a fandom be so... like this.

I'm sad that fandom seems to just kind of buy into the universe of imagery of kpop without irony. I mean, kpop is indeed *built* on visceral imagery (without violent connotations lol, I just mean that it's REALLY IMMEDIATE) and it works hard to cover up its darker waters, but there can be a lot of substance there. And substantial PEOPLE. omg it's so much better to read about actual PEOPLE, not badly defined images. c'monnnn fandom let's do thisssss ;~;

You have to adjust out of necessity otherwise you would literally have nothing to read. It's not necessarily a bad thing, I like that I can appreciate different types of fic now (like the super huge genre of NEVER FINISHED ANON MEME DRABBLE WIPS ;~;), but it can get frustrating as fuck. rrrr always so many thoughts about kpop lol :(

[spacejunks.livejournal.com]

I fail at html, what's new :c

I feel like the age/experience of the writers/readers matters too. I am being so damn age-ist right now, but hell I read/write lots of fluffy shit too, so I'm part of it. There was this short comment train after a college!shinee au about,

anon 1: oh there sure aren't many college aus!
anon 2: yeah i thought i'd be ok because they're at that age
anon 1: ah yes that's true. but most of the fans aren't
anon 2: hm you're probably right

Well they said something like that. But anyway, let's be clear--I'm part of the problem. Not sure how to change it, except to leave the internets more often to see real life (lolol) and read more actual fiction ahahahahha :\

LOL AT HOW YOUR SISTER APPROVES ahahahahhaa!!! Hey, at least she does approve. My brother just rolls his eyes at me and my mom pokes fun at me orz

Ughhhhhh I watched the bit of that singing show where it's Yesung vs Jonghyun and daaaaaaaamn that is a whole lot of drama. Oh, television. Um, I'm really excited for "punky" Jongyhun's stage, and his suggestive lollipop though.

HYORIN \o/

[counttheplanes.livejournal.com]

Oh yeah I think the age/experience matters a lot too. There's a certain lack of maturity to most of the fandom, and I don't necessarily mean that as an insult. It just feels very young, with all the implications.

LOL that college AU exchange. That's really really true. Ahh fandom.

Well I don't think it's a huuuge problem lol and I don't think you're a part of it? And you leaving would definitely not help the problem lol *weighs you down* I'm feeling more guilty for complaining about everything so much though lol, I think that's why I've been writing a lot lately. Too bad my writing isn't like... good. lol okay moving on!

This is a big step, ususally she says worried little comments like "you really like him............. :/" and "oh, SHINee again?........ :/" lol

UGH I HATE REALITY SHOW ELIMINATION DRAMA SO MUCHHHH. I just feel really bad for them! Especially when it's actual talent-based elimination because they all look so nervous and earnest and scared and ;~~~~~~; it's sf mean ;~~~;

I CAN'T WAIT FOR NEXT WEEK OMG

HYORIN!! She seems so loud and qt! I want her to get a lot of idol friends and ~love out of this!