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kerpingtack) wrote2011-08-23 03:58 pm
kerpingtack) wrote2011-08-23 03:58 pm
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advantage to twitter, don't need to think of subject lines
there was free food at work and I drank 2.5 cups of Coke. I can feel my bones slowly disintegrating but I don't care.
twitter has ruined me; it's now first nature to drop all apostrophes and abbreviate everything. I need halp! halp!
also too lazy to think of new ways to say things, which means if I already twittered about it (I'm still not that comfortable saying 'tweet' but it's not like 'twittered' is any better so I don't know what the point of this parethetical aside is) that's all there is to say!
I started today quite grandly:
wrt old entries: I forgot how I tried to ~cultivate a kind of online writing style before. I'd leave a lot out of ~stories about my day and do a lot of cutesy/clever affectations. I was copying how other people blogged to get that same sort of image. it took me a while before I really got annoyed at myself for trying so hard to say so much nothing. I could probably stand to be a little more edited now, just so I'm more... comprehensible but oh well oh well. in any case I'm gonna try to cut back on the parentheses. and stop changing my sentence in the middle of writing it.
this is my entry for the day, I'm just going to keep editing it~
edit @ 11:50pm
- jjong is a corgi. accept no substitutes!!!!!! (unless they are super cute.)
- I'm fucking bumming myself out with this jongyu thing I'm writing.
- I'm worried that I love Minho without ~getting~ him. but in a way I think that the thing about Minho is that there IS no thing about Minho, in that there's not a lot of filters or guards you have to get through, not like Onew or Key, for example. there's no "trick" to him. he's not a difficult person; he's earnest and considerate and has no... like, veiled motivations about things? like he loves SHINee because he loves SHINee, and he works hard because he wants to do the best he can and please people and do right by them, etc. in a lot of ways what you see is pretty much what you get. I guess people find him boring because what you see is sincere and pleasant and there's not much to figure out? his UFO replies are boring for this reason at least lol. but he's fun and funny and I think the most unguardedly sweet in SHINee. also serious, responsible, protective, quiet & thoughtful, etc.
- potential complicated factors: his fixation with older men, their attention, and their approval; his need for approval in general; being pliant and exploited for his looks!! or something similar about being farmed out as a particularly beautiful person in a sea of beautiful people idk; being "untalented"; competitive nature/pushing himself; family issues?; romantic/dramatic (living in his own kdrama at times lol); unconditional support for others that can be enabling (doesn't push others for emotional/~social~ responsibility?); athleticism?; remarkable lack of any stage presence or charisma (to be fair he's improved a lot); his dancing is a cause for concern (ballerino, Choi Minho lost his mind!!, general flailing frog limbs).
- I reserve the right to take back everything I said here if I change my mind, lol.
- I get really anxious when, in real life, I hear people talking about things I know. I go fucking bonkers because I want to talk about them too!!!!! but I don't know how to integrate myself in the already on-going conversation. today at work I overheard a bunch of people talking about their favorite Disney movies and someone asked what the last good Disney movie was. that was when I had to put in my earphones and scroll the volume up to drown them all out; otherwise I would've gone crazy in my seat trying to think of a way to contribute without scooting my rolly chair halfway across the office screaming LILO & STITCH!!!! MULAN!!!!!
- I'm eating a tortilla. just a tortilla. it's not even cooked. idk. it's not like I'm hungry either.
- I made a damn fool of myself on tumblr the other day. oh well it turned out okay.
- Jonghyun and Minho are everyone's girlfriends. I don't have to explain.
- I LOVE how smiley and friendly and fun Taemin, and Key have been recently. it's so ~heart-warming~ (the tildes are there to mask how serious I am about that statement). they're all loosening up and getting closer to one another~ I'm happy for Key in particular. he seems more genuine or something these days, a lot more secure or comfortable, and it's translating into a nice energy. confidence too. he's getting along with Minho and Onew and having fun with Taemin, and also being more... something with Jonghyun? he's initiating things more, without being arch? idk what I'm trying to say lol. and he looks amazing lately. he's a good looking guy. and Taemin has been a stand-out at the concert. I think he's been more appreciative of his hyungs and he's also been initiating things more. Most Improved Robot for sure.
- this fucking cut wizard pop up is annoying the hell out of me.
- LOL I truly am good at taking tests; I got a 96 on my geography midterm and I crammed for that the day of. granted it was ~heavily curved, but still. my one saving grace!! thank god.
- this is took me way too long. twitter is sapping away my rambling stamina. I need that, especially since the only way I can write comments is to ramble all over the countryside. sadcat
- wtf is up with this double-spaced problem.
twitter has ruined me; it's now first nature to drop all apostrophes and abbreviate everything. I need halp! halp!
also too lazy to think of new ways to say things, which means if I already twittered about it (I'm still not that comfortable saying 'tweet' but it's not like 'twittered' is any better so I don't know what the point of this parethetical aside is) that's all there is to say!
I started today quite grandly:
wtf happened last night i fell asleep at like 10pm, woke up at midnight, rolled my ankle on the way to the bathroom, and then fell asleep
on the floor cursing onew's name. ?????????????????????
my ankle still hurts
ok i remember stumbling to the bathroom to brush my teeth and then my ankle just rolled under me bc i don't know how to walk i guess
and then i just stayed lying down bc it rly hurt & was like THIS NEVER WOULDVE HAPPENED IF IT WASNT FOR THAT JONGYU GIF ??????
and then i fell asleep again. or passed out. idk what happened. wat was i even thinking about onew never rolled his ankle in any gif idk
ugh i hate my brain i'm still all muddled. i woke up thinking STUPID ONEW GIF
plus in my dream i was on this ride that was supposed to be 60s themed but it was like a ~scary ride & a shit ton of things fell over on me
and it was gross. this just goes to show, it's bad to sleep early smh
lol ty!!! i seriously don't know what happened. it must've been like that time in high school where i got up to close the blinds &
just fell over & slept another 3 hours on the floor & my sister found me and was like "........................."
no i'm laughing at myself too lolol dw, idk what happpens to me sometimes i'm like a tipped cow or a fainting goat or smth idek
actually a slightly better comparison would be those koalas that fall out of their tree bc they get stoned & sleepy, except i'm just
sleepy. i feel obligated to write more so this tweet isnt just one word long doo doo doo
wrt old entries: I forgot how I tried to ~cultivate a kind of online writing style before. I'd leave a lot out of ~stories about my day and do a lot of cutesy/clever affectations. I was copying how other people blogged to get that same sort of image. it took me a while before I really got annoyed at myself for trying so hard to say so much nothing. I could probably stand to be a little more edited now, just so I'm more... comprehensible but oh well oh well. in any case I'm gonna try to cut back on the parentheses. and stop changing my sentence in the middle of writing it.
this is my entry for the day, I'm just going to keep editing it~
edit @ 11:50pm
- jjong is a corgi. accept no substitutes!!!!!! (unless they are super cute.)
- I'm fucking bumming myself out with this jongyu thing I'm writing.
- I'm worried that I love Minho without ~getting~ him. but in a way I think that the thing about Minho is that there IS no thing about Minho, in that there's not a lot of filters or guards you have to get through, not like Onew or Key, for example. there's no "trick" to him. he's not a difficult person; he's earnest and considerate and has no... like, veiled motivations about things? like he loves SHINee because he loves SHINee, and he works hard because he wants to do the best he can and please people and do right by them, etc. in a lot of ways what you see is pretty much what you get. I guess people find him boring because what you see is sincere and pleasant and there's not much to figure out? his UFO replies are boring for this reason at least lol. but he's fun and funny and I think the most unguardedly sweet in SHINee. also serious, responsible, protective, quiet & thoughtful, etc.
- potential complicated factors: his fixation with older men, their attention, and their approval; his need for approval in general; being pliant and exploited for his looks!! or something similar about being farmed out as a particularly beautiful person in a sea of beautiful people idk; being "untalented"; competitive nature/pushing himself; family issues?; romantic/dramatic (living in his own kdrama at times lol); unconditional support for others that can be enabling (doesn't push others for emotional/~social~ responsibility?); athleticism?; remarkable lack of any stage presence or charisma (to be fair he's improved a lot); his dancing is a cause for concern (ballerino, Choi Minho lost his mind!!, general flailing frog limbs).
- I reserve the right to take back everything I said here if I change my mind, lol.
- I get really anxious when, in real life, I hear people talking about things I know. I go fucking bonkers because I want to talk about them too!!!!! but I don't know how to integrate myself in the already on-going conversation. today at work I overheard a bunch of people talking about their favorite Disney movies and someone asked what the last good Disney movie was. that was when I had to put in my earphones and scroll the volume up to drown them all out; otherwise I would've gone crazy in my seat trying to think of a way to contribute without scooting my rolly chair halfway across the office screaming LILO & STITCH!!!! MULAN!!!!!
- I'm eating a tortilla. just a tortilla. it's not even cooked. idk. it's not like I'm hungry either.
- I made a damn fool of myself on tumblr the other day. oh well it turned out okay.
- Jonghyun and Minho are everyone's girlfriends. I don't have to explain.
- I LOVE how smiley and friendly and fun Taemin, and Key have been recently. it's so ~heart-warming~ (the tildes are there to mask how serious I am about that statement). they're all loosening up and getting closer to one another~ I'm happy for Key in particular. he seems more genuine or something these days, a lot more secure or comfortable, and it's translating into a nice energy. confidence too. he's getting along with Minho and Onew and having fun with Taemin, and also being more... something with Jonghyun? he's initiating things more, without being arch? idk what I'm trying to say lol. and he looks amazing lately. he's a good looking guy. and Taemin has been a stand-out at the concert. I think he's been more appreciative of his hyungs and he's also been initiating things more. Most Improved Robot for sure.
- this fucking cut wizard pop up is annoying the hell out of me.
- LOL I truly am good at taking tests; I got a 96 on my geography midterm and I crammed for that the day of. granted it was ~heavily curved, but still. my one saving grace!! thank god.
- this is took me way too long. twitter is sapping away my rambling stamina. I need that, especially since the only way I can write comments is to ramble all over the countryside. sadcat
- wtf is up with this double-spaced problem.
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