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kerpingtack) wrote2011-08-23 03:58 pm
kerpingtack) wrote2011-08-23 03:58 pm
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advantage to twitter, don't need to think of subject lines
there was free food at work and I drank 2.5 cups of Coke. I can feel my bones slowly disintegrating but I don't care.
twitter has ruined me; it's now first nature to drop all apostrophes and abbreviate everything. I need halp! halp!
also too lazy to think of new ways to say things, which means if I already twittered about it (I'm still not that comfortable saying 'tweet' but it's not like 'twittered' is any better so I don't know what the point of this parethetical aside is) that's all there is to say!
I started today quite grandly:
wrt old entries: I forgot how I tried to ~cultivate a kind of online writing style before. I'd leave a lot out of ~stories about my day and do a lot of cutesy/clever affectations. I was copying how other people blogged to get that same sort of image. it took me a while before I really got annoyed at myself for trying so hard to say so much nothing. I could probably stand to be a little more edited now, just so I'm more... comprehensible but oh well oh well. in any case I'm gonna try to cut back on the parentheses. and stop changing my sentence in the middle of writing it.
this is my entry for the day, I'm just going to keep editing it~
edit @ 11:50pm
- jjong is a corgi. accept no substitutes!!!!!! (unless they are super cute.)
- I'm fucking bumming myself out with this jongyu thing I'm writing.
- I'm worried that I love Minho without ~getting~ him. but in a way I think that the thing about Minho is that there IS no thing about Minho, in that there's not a lot of filters or guards you have to get through, not like Onew or Key, for example. there's no "trick" to him. he's not a difficult person; he's earnest and considerate and has no... like, veiled motivations about things? like he loves SHINee because he loves SHINee, and he works hard because he wants to do the best he can and please people and do right by them, etc. in a lot of ways what you see is pretty much what you get. I guess people find him boring because what you see is sincere and pleasant and there's not much to figure out? his UFO replies are boring for this reason at least lol. but he's fun and funny and I think the most unguardedly sweet in SHINee. also serious, responsible, protective, quiet & thoughtful, etc.
- potential complicated factors: his fixation with older men, their attention, and their approval; his need for approval in general; being pliant and exploited for his looks!! or something similar about being farmed out as a particularly beautiful person in a sea of beautiful people idk; being "untalented"; competitive nature/pushing himself; family issues?; romantic/dramatic (living in his own kdrama at times lol); unconditional support for others that can be enabling (doesn't push others for emotional/~social~ responsibility?); athleticism?; remarkable lack of any stage presence or charisma (to be fair he's improved a lot); his dancing is a cause for concern (ballerino, Choi Minho lost his mind!!, general flailing frog limbs).
- I reserve the right to take back everything I said here if I change my mind, lol.
- I get really anxious when, in real life, I hear people talking about things I know. I go fucking bonkers because I want to talk about them too!!!!! but I don't know how to integrate myself in the already on-going conversation. today at work I overheard a bunch of people talking about their favorite Disney movies and someone asked what the last good Disney movie was. that was when I had to put in my earphones and scroll the volume up to drown them all out; otherwise I would've gone crazy in my seat trying to think of a way to contribute without scooting my rolly chair halfway across the office screaming LILO & STITCH!!!! MULAN!!!!!
- I'm eating a tortilla. just a tortilla. it's not even cooked. idk. it's not like I'm hungry either.
- I made a damn fool of myself on tumblr the other day. oh well it turned out okay.
- Jonghyun and Minho are everyone's girlfriends. I don't have to explain.
- I LOVE how smiley and friendly and fun Taemin, and Key have been recently. it's so ~heart-warming~ (the tildes are there to mask how serious I am about that statement). they're all loosening up and getting closer to one another~ I'm happy for Key in particular. he seems more genuine or something these days, a lot more secure or comfortable, and it's translating into a nice energy. confidence too. he's getting along with Minho and Onew and having fun with Taemin, and also being more... something with Jonghyun? he's initiating things more, without being arch? idk what I'm trying to say lol. and he looks amazing lately. he's a good looking guy. and Taemin has been a stand-out at the concert. I think he's been more appreciative of his hyungs and he's also been initiating things more. Most Improved Robot for sure.
- this fucking cut wizard pop up is annoying the hell out of me.
- LOL I truly am good at taking tests; I got a 96 on my geography midterm and I crammed for that the day of. granted it was ~heavily curved, but still. my one saving grace!! thank god.
- this is took me way too long. twitter is sapping away my rambling stamina. I need that, especially since the only way I can write comments is to ramble all over the countryside. sadcat
- wtf is up with this double-spaced problem.
twitter has ruined me; it's now first nature to drop all apostrophes and abbreviate everything. I need halp! halp!
also too lazy to think of new ways to say things, which means if I already twittered about it (I'm still not that comfortable saying 'tweet' but it's not like 'twittered' is any better so I don't know what the point of this parethetical aside is) that's all there is to say!
I started today quite grandly:
wtf happened last night i fell asleep at like 10pm, woke up at midnight, rolled my ankle on the way to the bathroom, and then fell asleep
on the floor cursing onew's name. ?????????????????????
my ankle still hurts
ok i remember stumbling to the bathroom to brush my teeth and then my ankle just rolled under me bc i don't know how to walk i guess
and then i just stayed lying down bc it rly hurt & was like THIS NEVER WOULDVE HAPPENED IF IT WASNT FOR THAT JONGYU GIF ??????
and then i fell asleep again. or passed out. idk what happened. wat was i even thinking about onew never rolled his ankle in any gif idk
ugh i hate my brain i'm still all muddled. i woke up thinking STUPID ONEW GIF
plus in my dream i was on this ride that was supposed to be 60s themed but it was like a ~scary ride & a shit ton of things fell over on me
and it was gross. this just goes to show, it's bad to sleep early smh
lol ty!!! i seriously don't know what happened. it must've been like that time in high school where i got up to close the blinds &
just fell over & slept another 3 hours on the floor & my sister found me and was like "........................."
no i'm laughing at myself too lolol dw, idk what happpens to me sometimes i'm like a tipped cow or a fainting goat or smth idek
actually a slightly better comparison would be those koalas that fall out of their tree bc they get stoned & sleepy, except i'm just
sleepy. i feel obligated to write more so this tweet isnt just one word long doo doo doo
wrt old entries: I forgot how I tried to ~cultivate a kind of online writing style before. I'd leave a lot out of ~stories about my day and do a lot of cutesy/clever affectations. I was copying how other people blogged to get that same sort of image. it took me a while before I really got annoyed at myself for trying so hard to say so much nothing. I could probably stand to be a little more edited now, just so I'm more... comprehensible but oh well oh well. in any case I'm gonna try to cut back on the parentheses. and stop changing my sentence in the middle of writing it.
this is my entry for the day, I'm just going to keep editing it~
edit @ 11:50pm
- jjong is a corgi. accept no substitutes!!!!!! (unless they are super cute.)
- I'm fucking bumming myself out with this jongyu thing I'm writing.
- I'm worried that I love Minho without ~getting~ him. but in a way I think that the thing about Minho is that there IS no thing about Minho, in that there's not a lot of filters or guards you have to get through, not like Onew or Key, for example. there's no "trick" to him. he's not a difficult person; he's earnest and considerate and has no... like, veiled motivations about things? like he loves SHINee because he loves SHINee, and he works hard because he wants to do the best he can and please people and do right by them, etc. in a lot of ways what you see is pretty much what you get. I guess people find him boring because what you see is sincere and pleasant and there's not much to figure out? his UFO replies are boring for this reason at least lol. but he's fun and funny and I think the most unguardedly sweet in SHINee. also serious, responsible, protective, quiet & thoughtful, etc.
- potential complicated factors: his fixation with older men, their attention, and their approval; his need for approval in general; being pliant and exploited for his looks!! or something similar about being farmed out as a particularly beautiful person in a sea of beautiful people idk; being "untalented"; competitive nature/pushing himself; family issues?; romantic/dramatic (living in his own kdrama at times lol); unconditional support for others that can be enabling (doesn't push others for emotional/~social~ responsibility?); athleticism?; remarkable lack of any stage presence or charisma (to be fair he's improved a lot); his dancing is a cause for concern (ballerino, Choi Minho lost his mind!!, general flailing frog limbs).
- I reserve the right to take back everything I said here if I change my mind, lol.
- I get really anxious when, in real life, I hear people talking about things I know. I go fucking bonkers because I want to talk about them too!!!!! but I don't know how to integrate myself in the already on-going conversation. today at work I overheard a bunch of people talking about their favorite Disney movies and someone asked what the last good Disney movie was. that was when I had to put in my earphones and scroll the volume up to drown them all out; otherwise I would've gone crazy in my seat trying to think of a way to contribute without scooting my rolly chair halfway across the office screaming LILO & STITCH!!!! MULAN!!!!!
- I'm eating a tortilla. just a tortilla. it's not even cooked. idk. it's not like I'm hungry either.
- I made a damn fool of myself on tumblr the other day. oh well it turned out okay.
- Jonghyun and Minho are everyone's girlfriends. I don't have to explain.
- I LOVE how smiley and friendly and fun Taemin, and Key have been recently. it's so ~heart-warming~ (the tildes are there to mask how serious I am about that statement). they're all loosening up and getting closer to one another~ I'm happy for Key in particular. he seems more genuine or something these days, a lot more secure or comfortable, and it's translating into a nice energy. confidence too. he's getting along with Minho and Onew and having fun with Taemin, and also being more... something with Jonghyun? he's initiating things more, without being arch? idk what I'm trying to say lol. and he looks amazing lately. he's a good looking guy. and Taemin has been a stand-out at the concert. I think he's been more appreciative of his hyungs and he's also been initiating things more. Most Improved Robot for sure.
- this fucking cut wizard pop up is annoying the hell out of me.
- LOL I truly am good at taking tests; I got a 96 on my geography midterm and I crammed for that the day of. granted it was ~heavily curved, but still. my one saving grace!! thank god.
- this is took me way too long. twitter is sapping away my rambling stamina. I need that, especially since the only way I can write comments is to ramble all over the countryside. sadcat
- wtf is up with this double-spaced problem.
OMG
idk what to do???? should I live-blog my reading??? I just hit the part with the CORGI, THE CORGI!!!!!!!!1!11111 OAHHHHHGMMMMGGGG ;;;;;;;;;;~~~;;;;;;;;;;
OKAY I'LL SPAM FIRST THEN TRY TO MAKE A CLASSY RESTRAIEND COMMENT LATER!!!!!
When Minho shook his head in a sort of 'you're impossible' gesture lol omg I can see this exactly in my head
jjong being sassyyyyyyyy about his furry hood, that's right, shit gets cold everywhere!! and he has zero body fat to insulate him lol. MINHO HOLDING THE DOOR OPEN!!!!
lol jjong sort of being proven right, it's cold outside! and omg Minho taking walks to tire himself out so he can sleep properly, he's so good at life lol, that seems like the kind of thing you're supposed to do. wearing jjong's hoodie!! KEY! exclamation points!!!!
CORGI CORGI CORGI CORGICORGICORGICORGICORGI
I love how this is structured by seasons and heat btw. Minho had long lost count of how many times they've weaved back and fourth over the east sea on airplanes. this line is pretty!
Minho saying bye-bye to the corgi omg crying that's so cute, he's so cute, I love this fic, ty so much for writing it!!
And that guy was already home? At least now he knew there was ice cream waiting for him after lunch. something about this line, and this whole paragraph actually with Minho just kind of thinking about how the corgi's coloring reminds him of jjong's hair, is so believable? to me. that's not the right word, but like it's normal and immediate and not in any kind of stylized self-awareness. it seems like the way actual Minho might think in that moment. omg idk.
I feel like I'm gonna run out of the character count at this rate lol
FUCKING CRYING THE WHOLE NEXT SECTION WITH JJONG IS PERFECTION. EVERY SINGLE THING. OMG I LOVE THE ECONOMY OF YOUR WRITING. EVERY SENTENCE IS FULL OF GREAT THINGS ;~; EMOTIONS EVERYWHERE
"Jinki-hyung's still passed out from hanging out with whoever so last night, so I dunno if he's gonna go out to dinner with us tonight." reflexive rrrrgh!! but lol aww the ice cream probably is Onew's way of apologizing. cute bastrid ;;;;;;;
"Haha, you look like you're about to pass out," Jonghyun begins to fan Minho with the mail; some newspaper advertisements and postcards that Key and Taemin sent to themselves and each other from Japan. "Glad I got back before it got really hot. 2pm. Hottest time of day."
EVERY
SINGLE
PART
OF THIS PARAGRAPH. OMG LAUGHING AT MINHO. OMG FANNING. OMG TAEKEY SENDING EACH OTHER MAIL A;LKSR;KWLHERBKJASFKJA;SDF AHHHHHH. LOL OMG JJONG QUOTING 2PM, I LOVE THAT, HE TOTALLY DOES WALK AROUND WITH MUSIC BITS IN HIS HEAD ALL THE TIME AND HE JUST SAYS THEM THROUGHOUT THE DAY CAPSLOCK END OKAY
LOL YOU KNOW HOW I FEEL ABOUT THE KISSING!!!! OMG PERFECT
It occurred to him that Jonghyun's mouth was probably cool from the latent cold of the ice cream HELL YEAH IT OCCURS TO YOU, LET IT OCCUR TO U ALL NIGHT LONG MINHO
"Don't offer, then!" Minho can hear the smile in Jonghyun's tone. "And just eat vanilla, will you, it matches you. And Jinki-hyung always needs help finishing that stuff off anyway." crying CRYING you write Jonghyun so well, he's so fresh and ~guyishly~ pert and cute god I love him and I love you (you - you - youx1000000 /tzechar)
lmao jjong's immediate defensive "Yeah, so?" <3____<3
yeah lol why exactly did you cut up Onew's sweater?? he's so weird with his concert shirts, giant armholes and tight undershirt. ugh I want to stick my head through one of the armholes. lol wat who said that?!
YES ONU none of that self-deprecation now! ;~;
"can't help but provoke" lololol seriously, SERIOUSLY. LITERAL FASHION TERRORIST! that's pretty good lol gj Minho