rhiannon

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Glorious things I'm going to do once I'm done with this hellspawn demon paper (fuck I can't believe how full of papers my life has been this year):
- spend seven hours on the bus/train going back hoammmm
- work on jongyu in Japan/jongho ambiguous/jongyu where they actually get together and/or is happy or smth idk
- work on Sunny post
- Jonghyun singing/voice spam (= write endless paragraphs of ;~;s)
- ORGANIZE MY PICTURES FOLDER (I love doing this <3__<3)

Killing time/squiggling away from paper-writing:

I felt cute today even though on closer inspection I looked crazy and disheveled, not put together and streamlined like I was in my head. I had pigtails lol. :(

recent filenames

GET OUT WITH YOUR CHINA WOODCUT PATTERN JACKET AND YOUR PERFECT LITTLE FACE OMFG
taemin reliving his mistake over and over
gaadddddammmmmn youuuuuuuuu
think about england onew
stupid fashion poncho
the back of jonghyun's head is in this picture therefore JONGHO4EVER
you bitches
FUCKING CRYING LET ME MARRY YOU JUST ONCE
STOP WITH THE VESTS FOR THE LOVE OF GOD
get out taemin!!!!
shindong looks like one of those things at the end of star wars
FUCK i have to order this
ugh fuck this i'm ordering it
WHY THE FUCK AM I SO POOR
minho holding a ball of light and looking good
taemin holding a ball of light and blossoming like a flower
key holding a ball of light and being a fairy
onew holding a ball of light and looking like he's about to play dodgeball
jonghyun holding a ball of light and being my future husband forever
bloaty froggy schoolteacher minho
jjong is a pouty teenage girl lol unf
i'm gonna shove you into a book rack taemin
i have a shirt in that material
what is this go back to your hutch onew
never seen before equals instant save
selca queens
power lesbians
why am i saving this
GET OUT RIGHT NOW
STOP PRETENDING YOU HAVE DIGNITY

and a mini-series of Abbey Road pictures, saved exactly in this order lol

god fucking damnit i'm so fucking upset ;~~~;
JJONG WHY ;~~~~~~~;
crying WHY
I HATE EVERYTHING ;~~~;
I HATE EVERYTHING OMFG
FUCK I HATE EVERYTHING I'M SO FUCKING UPSET ;~~~;
I'M SO FUCKING ANGRY GOD WHY
oh onew looks really good here
I'M SO FUCKING UPSET

- I really love SHINee's pre-show huddle ritual, the ultra SHINee transformation thing. It's so weird and incomprehensible. I wonder what it means to them? God I need to get a hold of myself.
- TAEMIN AND JONGHYUN. Confusing thoughts! I used to think that they were quite uncomplicated despite their distance but now I'm not sure. Taemin looks up to Jonghyun at the same time he looks down on him, Jonghyun's backed off on the big brothering, but they're interacting more? Orrrr we're just seeing it more ahaha ugh I gotta back off this fandom.
- Why are people so shamelss about their stupidity? UNRELATEDLY why don't some stans understand the people they stan at all? ALSO UNRELATEDLY I think it's really weird and annoying when people are like "x can do better than y" when x and y are ACTUALLY FRIENDS and LIKE EACH OTHER IN REAL LIFE. Stop being gross and projectiony, fans!! Even if you do feel the need to like... find the ~perfect person~ for your weird idealized projection puppet, can you notttt in public, especially in fic comments when the pairing is the x/y you're railing against? Like I am much too invested in Jonghyun's emotional health but I'm not going to presume that I actually know his relationships better than he does. Or any other celebrity figure. Fine okay, I'm annoying myself with this passive-aggressiveness: SOME ONHO STANS ARE MEAN TO JJONG AND IT BOTHERS ME >:( omg everything I'm writing right now is telling me I have to get a grip.
- uhhh... anyway I love this:

At the next Jonghyun’s turn, other members all gathered to watch his shooting. Monitoring the computer screen, Minho-goon made orders like “Smile more!,” “Hyung! make your face like this!” to Jonghyun-goon.

Key-goon joined the lively circle to watch Jonghyun-goon.

While receiving all attention, Jonghyun remained undisturbed and showed a cool look.

The last was Minho-goon’s solo shot. He played with Taemin-goon or talked with the staff or other members as a mood maker until right before the shooting started, but he changed into a different person when he sat before the camera. The camera man praised, “You have pretty eyes!”

Only the solo photos are posted, but they observed seriously other members’ shooting. It was impressive they get along well and stimulate each other. They were very lively checking dance moves or humming while talking in between the solo photoshoots. Their topics were endless. Brilliantly shining 5 members of SHINee!

JONGHYUN LISTEN TO THEM EVEN IF THEY'RE TROLLING YOU HAVE NO IDEA WHAT TO DO WITH YOUR DUMB PERFECT FACE ASIDE FROM THE THREE POSES/EXPRESSIONS YOU ALWAYS DO. Also lolll SHINee like to unite against Jonghyun. Also awwww Minho as the mood maker!!

I've decided that I use ;~; too much and I'm going to try to cut back!!

edit @ 11:01 pm: Wow this entry is dumb. Oh my brains, what will become of them.

Comments

[rumble.livejournal.com]

lol your filenames. mine are like tumblr09rkfd_kfsldfdsoifq2.gif :(

talking to you has made me realize that i might be a little too hard on taemin. but it's not because i'm bitter about him taking jonghyun's lines/place, i've just always been a little :| about him. and i was thinking about it and i think it's because he's like a mix of onew and key. he has that really socially awkward side like onew, the blinding demonstrative self-confidence like key and then he's got the crazy insecurity onkey have as well. idk he's a weird kid, sometimes he makes me super uncomfortable lol. i really like jongtae most of the time because it brings out a really strange side in jonghyun idg at all but i have a harder time dealing with other taemin pairings because he feels a bit like the side order in those. IDK!

- work on jongyu in Japan/jongho ambiguous/jongyu where they actually get together and/or is happy or smth idk
- Jonghyun singing/voice spam (= write endless paragraphs of ;~;s)

looking forward to these omg :D! also because then i don't have to finish this jonghyun/onew music spam i've been working on for like, a million years lol i'm lazy whatever

[rumble.livejournal.com]

*a little :| about him since debut

why can i never comment without getting smth wrong omg

[counttheplanes.livejournal.com]

idk for the most part I don't give a fuck about Taemin ahaha, mostly because he doesn't give a lot, you know? I think he's kinda guarded and when people are obviously trying to... idk reserve? parts of themselves away from the public eye like that I feel kinda uncomfortable trying to focus too much on them, like I'm prying. Onew is guarded too but he actively creates that sangtae front, so he's kinda giving something at least. Taemin doesn't care enough/doesn't really have to since he can get by pretty well with that ^^;; face. or something. I've never thought about him as a mix of Onew and Key, that's a cool way to think about it and it makes a lot of sense. And no wonder Taemin's so weird~ idk, Taemin's insecurity is strange. He seems pretty confident aside from his nervousness about public speaking and singing, but he got that nose job and everything.

nooooooo finish them idk if I'll finish any of the spams I say I will lol I just like the idea of making them. They get me through a lot of shitty bus rides.

[counttheplanes.livejournal.com]

You know what, actually idk if Taemin is guarded or if there really isn't much to him. He's seriously such a robot to me. Like idk how much of it is him being reserved as a public figure and how much of it is actual unformed personality bc he's still a kid figuring out what he likes and who he is. (Or more unflatteringly, how much of it is just NO PERSONALITY. Even if he's young, like, onjongkey at that age had definite tastes and... personalities. But they didn't grow up in the idol machine the way Taemin did. ugh whatever idk.) OH WELL.