arachnoid

I am some kind of poster child for POOR TIME MANAGEMENT and LOW IMPULSE CONTROL. Watching so many SHINee videos on youtube, just so many. ;________; I LOVE JONGHYUN SO FUCKING MUCH. I smile at everything he does even the awkward embarrassing shit. THIS HAS NEVER HAPPENED BEFORE. Embarrassing stuff usually just makes me embarrassed. LIKE THAT VIDEO OF HIM BAWLING. I usually cringe so badly at stuff like that. But I've rewatched that video like twelve times. Because. He is the most precious thing. And I love him. ;______;

I'm going to be 22 soon and I have no idea how to react to it! 22 is a nothing age. It means that I'm going to be a twentysomething and that's about it. No more cultural cues for what I'm supposed to be doing!

Something was tickling the side of my face while I walking to the library this morning and I was like "goddamn I need a haircut" and brushed it out of my way. BUT IT WAS A SPIDER. WTF. WHY. I am now paranoid that every sensation is another spider. (Heey "Every Sensation is Another Spider" could be a great indie douchebag band song title.) How did it get on my face?! 

UGH and another albino cricket thing showed in our room. Where the fuck are these bugs coming from. It scared the hell out of me because somebody put baby in a corner I sit really close against the wall and the cricket was crawling up it right next to me. I had to ask my cousin to deal with it. If it was on the ground I would've anvil-dropped my sister's biology textbook on it like I did with Albino Cricket Thing the First but it was on the wall and ughhh IT JUMPS noooooooo.

I finally finished this dumb playlist for myself. I started it TWO YEARS ago, no joke. It's not even some huge epic playlist, it's only twenty songs and the order is all fucked up because I have no sense of flow. Why am I so bad at these things?? How do I manage to procrastinate on shit I don't even need to do? I will share with Theoretical Internet Audience anyway.

I can't tell if I'm improving or whatever. I don't want to run myself over with a truck which is a good sign. I wish I could stop obsessing about my appearance. I know I'm fine, I am perfectly okay.

Relatedly, I was rereading old entries. Wowwwww I sound really really dumb in some of them. For the future!me who is self-obsessively rereading this: I know I sound really really dumb in this entry too.

It is annoying when someone hits you in the head with their backpack. It is also annoying when the people on either side of you talk to each other over you during a lecture. What is wrong with people, do they actually need to be told NOT to do that? It is also annoying when people walk slowly and make it impossible to pass them. I have wished so many times that I could just put my foot on their back and push. Especially on the stairs.

I love Romeo+Juliette. I can't even see how I can not like it. I AM COMPLETELY OFF THE DEEP END NOW. Jonghyun sounds so fucking good in it. Instant spiritual boner. (omg he's younger than me. Emotionally I feel like 16 years old, tops, so I don't feel that ~wrong~ about watching gifs 100x more than necessary, but it is WEIRD. He was born in 1990!! WHAT IS THAT ABOUT. Also my intro soash discussion is full of first years and we were discussing a reading on the OJ Simpson case and they were all like, "I was only four when that trial happened!" and ugh why are people so young?? Seriously, how can something born in the 1990s be a fully-grown person??) God his voice is so good. 

Pointless comparison that is only relevant to me: SHINee AND DISCO. Jonghyun and bden. Umm I don't have anything to say about this. My SHINee thing just reminds me of my disco thing and I relistened to pretty much all the disco on my iPod. kpop just works so fucking differently from anything in the US music industry.

LOL HE'S SO LOUD AND DUMB AND AMUSING IN HELLO BABY. EVERYTHING'S SO EMBARRASSING ON THIS SHOW. I LOVE HIM.