hither and yon

( ceci n'est pas un pipe: scattered half-assed meta attempt for Jonghyun )
 
note: under constant neverending edit (NOT EXAGGERATING)
note @ 110723: wow I think I may actually be able to leave this alone now. it's as complete as it's gonna get, beside some ~supplemental source posts I've decided to lose my mind over :d

THIS IS A POST ABOUT KIM JONGHYUN

( cavalcade of pics+gifs+adjectives )

( edit @ 101221 )

My five days of torture turned out to be unnecessarily grim, as everyone had guessed, because I passed! the! class! YES! The professor was concerned about plagiarism, but not the accidental kind, and after she determined from my sea of babbling that I knew the subject matter enough to have written the paper, she told me that I was in the clear and would receive a B- for the class. YESSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSS

So many people were concerned about me and checked up on me throughout the day, including my therapist/counselor who asked if she could call me after the meeting to see how I was, which was really really really nice of her. I called my mom who was happy for me, and my bost frond who was happy for me too, and so were my sister and my cousin and my therapist. I came back to the cool and empty apartment, hungry and happy and sleepy for the first time in days, and I ate a marathon of food while reading a good book. I felt safe and loved in the family of things.* I still do. It is a good feeling.

Urgh I wish I could delete my extra Skype names. I hate having extraneous accounts.

For what it's worth, I am really happy at the moment, but it feels a little shaky and delirious, like in just a couple of paces I'll be sad again. 

MY FAVORITE GAME TO PLAY is WHAT WOULD I MOST LIKE TO EAT RIGHT NOW?!?!? It is inherently depressing but good for organizing the soul. I would most like to eat tri-tip with warm soft French bread, potato salad, chicken salad with walnuts, apples, and bleu cheese dressing, and fruit punch. God that sounds good. I WANT TO HAS EATS NOW.

Inception has suuuch good fic, om nom nom. Still haven't seen it yet! And it makes me anxious to see everyone falling in love with Joseph Gordon-Levitt. I don't know why this unsettles me! Maybe it feels like I should be falling in love with him too. But I don't want to be all capsy and stuff, I just want to appreciate his fine acting (FOR REAL) and what an ultimate fantasy boyfrond he is. He'd be such a cool person to know. I like his dimples. Fine, maybe I'm already a little in love. Tra la la~

It was really hot today and it will only get hotter. Monday's high will be 99. WHAT THE FUCK.

*NOW THAT I AM TERRIFIED OF  NOT CITING THINGS: this is from Wild Geese by Mary Oliver, on which I imprinted something fierce when I was sixteen.

K got back from the BJ Novak talk, which was an hour-long Q&A session. He was so so nice, like seriously. At about 5 minutes till the end there were still tons of people raising their hands to ask questions so he said if the Campus Events Commission people still had the room, he could stay overtime, and he could hang around after and answer questions one-on-one. Plus the moderator kept interrupting him but he was super polite and nice and would finish what he was saying and respond to the mod at the end. He was hella gracious!

He was also smoking hot, for seriously. He looked really really good. It was awesome. Like. Yeah. BJ Novak, if you were in one of my classes, I would totally stare at you creepily and stalk you across campus. He was also really articulate and funny and clear and it was just really cool to listen to him.

Whot he talked about (this is so out of order it's not even funny and also I got like all the details wrong and I forgot A LOOOOOT):
- career path: Ever since he was little, he wanted to be a writer but he didn't know what kind. Later he says that he knew he wanted to be a FAMOUS kind of writer; his dad is/was a ghostwriter for political/celebrity biographies and stuff and he would be credited as "with William(?) Novak," so he was all "I kind of wanted to avenge the family name." In Harvard he wrote for the Harvard Lampoon, knowing that a lot of people went onto Hollywood from there. He wrote a parody of Full House with his friend (Dan something? I think? Question mark?) and Bob Saget saw it and etc etc he got hired as a writer for a sitcom starring M. Saget at age 21. He hated the experience, started writing in jokes they could never use, also started telling those jokes on open mike stand-up every night, and bombed every night.
- some pieces of advice he is confident about giving without feeling presumptuous/thinking he's so great and wise:
--> Write for the person next to you, not what you think is going to get you hired. (Write something that you like and would impress your friends, etc.)
--> (from his dad) Write only what you like, keep only what they like.
- Related to the advice: he would sometimes go out w/ material that he thought the audience would like and when it bombed he'd be all, "Fuck you guys, I didn't think it was funny either!" Anyway what's the point of doing this if you don't ~believe~ in it, or if you don't think it's good?
- Two sets of advice for how to break into the business: creative and professional. He thinks the professional is overemphasized. Generally the way to get noticed is to write a great script. People genuinely want good writers. If it's a pretty good one, keep working on it until it's great. Also do not underestimate messing around on the internet or whatever to make your friends laugh. But he knows how hard it is to be patient. During the year and a half when he was doing stand-up and bombing, he would be so bored that when he got stuck in traffic, he'd be all, "Yes! Traffic!" He had something to do!
- At the beginning of the season the writers get together for two months and throw out about a bagizillion (/thousands) ideas that they write down on index cards. The ones they keep are the ones they can't stop talking about, and the ones that get made are the dozen or so that Greg Daniels picks.
- His favorite episodes that he's written are the earlier ones, Diversity Day and Sexual Harassment. He loooves Diversity Day. He likes Sexual Harassment because it was where "that's what she said" originates and it features one of his favorite side characters, the lawyer P.L. Beanie (he is proud of coming up w/ that name).
- He thinks every ten years or so there's a new movie/TV show that really captures how people are actually talking, because up until then there's a run of movies imitating a movie imitating a movie imitating a movie, etc. He thinks that quality explains the success of Judd Apatow movies.
- Relatedly his dream is to make a definitive cult movie that everyone quotes until their dying day, etc. He'd be happy with that one movie.
- some jokes from his stand-up that he really loved but no one ever laughed at:
"The other day I saw a guy drinking water, with frozen water in it. I thought, that guy sure likes his water."
"The saddest idiot savant is the one who is a savant at self-awareness" (ugh I butchered this one so badly, but the punchline is there)

SIGH! Nursing my crush on BJ Novak foreverrrr now kthx.