SCREAMING
MY MASTERPIECE DVD CAME
MY HEAD IS IN A ROAR
I'M SO HAPPY I CAN'T FEEL ANYTHING
CRYING & DYING
THANK YOU FOR YOUR TIME
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LOL MASTERPIECE DVD PHOTOSHOOT
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( EVERYTHING IS IMPORTANT )
MY MASTERPIECE DVD CAME
MY HEAD IS IN A ROAR
I'M SO HAPPY I CAN'T FEEL ANYTHING
CRYING & DYING
THANK YOU FOR YOUR TIME
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LOL MASTERPIECE DVD PHOTOSHOOT
IDC ;w;
( EVERYTHING IS IMPORTANT )
joyous pandas
Sep. 24th, 2010 11:44 pmMy five days of torture turned out to be unnecessarily grim, as everyone had guessed, because I passed! the! class! YES! The professor was concerned about plagiarism, but not the accidental kind, and after she determined from my sea of babbling that I knew the subject matter enough to have written the paper, she told me that I was in the clear and would receive a B- for the class. YESSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSS
So many people were concerned about me and checked up on me throughout the day, including my therapist/counselor who asked if she could call me after the meeting to see how I was, which was really really really nice of her. I called my mom who was happy for me, and my bost frond who was happy for me too, and so were my sister and my cousin and my therapist. I came back to the cool and empty apartment, hungry and happy and sleepy for the first time in days, and I ate a marathon of food while reading a good book. I felt safe and loved in the family of things.* I still do. It is a good feeling.
Urgh I wish I could delete my extra Skype names. I hate having extraneous accounts.
For what it's worth, I am really happy at the moment, but it feels a little shaky and delirious, like in just a couple of paces I'll be sad again.
MY FAVORITE GAME TO PLAY is WHAT WOULD I MOST LIKE TO EAT RIGHT NOW?!?!? It is inherently depressing but good for organizing the soul. I would most like to eat tri-tip with warm soft French bread, potato salad, chicken salad with walnuts, apples, and bleu cheese dressing, and fruit punch. God that sounds good. I WANT TO HAS EATS NOW.
Inception has suuuch good fic, om nom nom. Still haven't seen it yet! And it makes me anxious to see everyone falling in love with Joseph Gordon-Levitt. I don't know why this unsettles me! Maybe it feels like I should be falling in love with him too. But I don't want to be all capsy and stuff, I just want to appreciate his fine acting (FOR REAL) and what an ultimate fantasy boyfrond he is. He'd be such a cool person to know. I like his dimples. Fine, maybe I'm already a little in love. Tra la la~
It was really hot today and it will only get hotter. Monday's high will be 99. WHAT THE FUCK.
*NOW THAT I AM TERRIFIED OF NOT CITING THINGS: this is from Wild Geese by Mary Oliver, on which I imprinted something fierce when I was sixteen.
So many people were concerned about me and checked up on me throughout the day, including my therapist/counselor who asked if she could call me after the meeting to see how I was, which was really really really nice of her. I called my mom who was happy for me, and my bost frond who was happy for me too, and so were my sister and my cousin and my therapist. I came back to the cool and empty apartment, hungry and happy and sleepy for the first time in days, and I ate a marathon of food while reading a good book. I felt safe and loved in the family of things.* I still do. It is a good feeling.
Urgh I wish I could delete my extra Skype names. I hate having extraneous accounts.
For what it's worth, I am really happy at the moment, but it feels a little shaky and delirious, like in just a couple of paces I'll be sad again.
MY FAVORITE GAME TO PLAY is WHAT WOULD I MOST LIKE TO EAT RIGHT NOW?!?!? It is inherently depressing but good for organizing the soul. I would most like to eat tri-tip with warm soft French bread, potato salad, chicken salad with walnuts, apples, and bleu cheese dressing, and fruit punch. God that sounds good. I WANT TO HAS EATS NOW.
Inception has suuuch good fic, om nom nom. Still haven't seen it yet! And it makes me anxious to see everyone falling in love with Joseph Gordon-Levitt. I don't know why this unsettles me! Maybe it feels like I should be falling in love with him too. But I don't want to be all capsy and stuff, I just want to appreciate his fine acting (FOR REAL) and what an ultimate fantasy boyfrond he is. He'd be such a cool person to know. I like his dimples. Fine, maybe I'm already a little in love. Tra la la~
It was really hot today and it will only get hotter. Monday's high will be 99. WHAT THE FUCK.
*NOW THAT I AM TERRIFIED OF NOT CITING THINGS: this is from Wild Geese by Mary Oliver, on which I imprinted something fierce when I was sixteen.
BEE DOO ROO DOOOOOOOOOO
Apr. 9th, 2010 11:45 pmWE BEAT THE SUBSPACE EMISSARY ADVENTURE ON SUPER SMASH BROS BRAWL
STFU THIS IS A BIG DEAL FOR US, WE ARE NOT GAMERS, THIS IS THE FIRST TIME WE'VE EVER FINISHED A GAME WITH A STORY AND STAGES AND BOSSES!!!! AND IT FELT DAMN GOOD
It was a total team effort!! My sister and I played through it with JJB chattering non-stop in the background like a sprite that follows you around telling you "Press B to use your boomerang!" while you look online for a cheat to help you kill him, or a random townsperson on an RPG that you try to avoid because if you walk past them you'll have to Skip twenty times while they talk about the history of the mountain or that the weather looks bad today, do you want to go fishing? OR WHATEVER.................................. anywaaaay JJB was helpful exactly 50% of the time (b/c he is literally a freaking encyclopedia when it comes to the stuff he's interested in) and CRAZY ANNOYING the other 50% of the time (b/c he is better than you and WILL NEVER STOP TALKING). And on the final boss Tabuu all three of us played against him in a frantic wii remote swap loop. It took us six tries!! gd his stupid wings. JJB was the one who finished him off with Ganondorf. (More like GanonDORK hurr hurr hurr. <-- our favorite joke) OH SWEET VICTORYYYYY
ELEVEN HOURSSSSSSSSSS~!!!!!!!!!!!!
We were probably a little too invested in the trophy story, but to be fair, JJB was the only one who actually cried when Ness sacrificed himself for Lucas. ;_____;
BEE DOO ROOO DOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO BA RA RA RA BAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAA
PS, IT WAS ONLY ON EASY!!!! WE ARE ROCKSTARS
STFU THIS IS A BIG DEAL FOR US, WE ARE NOT GAMERS, THIS IS THE FIRST TIME WE'VE EVER FINISHED A GAME WITH A STORY AND STAGES AND BOSSES!!!! AND IT FELT DAMN GOOD
It was a total team effort!! My sister and I played through it with JJB chattering non-stop in the background like a sprite that follows you around telling you "Press B to use your boomerang!" while you look online for a cheat to help you kill him, or a random townsperson on an RPG that you try to avoid because if you walk past them you'll have to Skip twenty times while they talk about the history of the mountain or that the weather looks bad today, do you want to go fishing? OR WHATEVER.................................. anywaaaay JJB was helpful exactly 50% of the time (b/c he is literally a freaking encyclopedia when it comes to the stuff he's interested in) and CRAZY ANNOYING the other 50% of the time (b/c he is better than you and WILL NEVER STOP TALKING). And on the final boss Tabuu all three of us played against him in a frantic wii remote swap loop. It took us six tries!! gd his stupid wings. JJB was the one who finished him off with Ganondorf. (More like GanonDORK hurr hurr hurr. <-- our favorite joke) OH SWEET VICTORYYYYY
ELEVEN HOURSSSSSSSSSS~!!!!!!!!!!!!
We were probably a little too invested in the trophy story, but to be fair, JJB was the only one who actually cried when Ness sacrificed himself for Lucas. ;_____;
BEE DOO ROOO DOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO BA RA RA RA BAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAA
PS, IT WAS ONLY ON EASY!!!! WE ARE ROCKSTARS
I am on a contained, but thorough, youtube spiral wrt the Olympics (ie, endlessly clicking Related Videos BUT not going on wikipedia to branch out into other winter Olympics sports-->curling-->curly fries-->fast food commercials, etc). I am so so enamored of the pairs figure skating team who just won the gold medal, Shen Xue and Zhao Hongbo of China:
They have been partners (and they are SUCH partners ~on the ice~, it is so wonderful to watch!!!! I LOVE THEM) for eighteen years and they got married just a few years ago. He went down on one knee to propose to her on the ice after one of their performances, but she misinterpreted the gesture and kneeled with him ~in solidarity. !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! They came out of retirement for the Olympics because it was like the only medal in the universe they hadn't won yet. NOW THAT THEY HAVE WON IT THEY ARE RETIRING FOR GOOD AND FOCUSING ON THEIR FAMBLY. <3___<3
I LOVE THEM. THEY FIST-BUMP BEFORE THEY START SKATING. SHE SMILES SO BIG EVERY TIME THEY DO A BIG ELEMENT. THEY BOTH JUMPED OVER THE BARRICADE TO HUG THEIR COACH. THEY WERE SO HAPPY WHEN THEY WON. THEY ARE SO BEAUTIFUL AND WARM TOGETHER. THEY ARE SO IN LOVE. I LOVE THEM I LOVE THEM I LOOOOOVE THEMMMMMMMMMM
The performances from the Olympics aren't up on youtube yet but this was their short program (Who Wants to Live Forever) for the 2009 - 2010 season and this was their long one (Adagio in G minor).
2002 Olympics short program (Kismet)
2003 Worlds long program (Turandot) <-- I LOVE this one
I have very little interest in men's figure skating. Women's figure skating hasn't started yet. I'm hella looking forward to it!
I'm in awe of Kim Yu-na! She is like the best in the universe right now. I don't know anything about figure skating, though apparently she is freaking textbook perfect, but just visually...!! The lines of her are amazingly pretty and it's all so easy and expressive. It's a thrill just to watch her go across the rink. Her skating is just so so pretty. (Note: I'm always surprised at how people choose to romanize Korean, because I saw her name in Korean and it's actually pronounced 'Yun-ah', not 'Yoo-nah'. But I didn't even know who she was until this Olympics, that's how bad of a Korean I am. They're going to revoke my card.)
2009 Worlds long program (Scheherazade)
2009 Skate America (James Bond medley) <-- It's a bit posey for my ~taste, but lol, it's a Bond medley and it's cute and she looks gr8 and I love how it follows the music, especially when it kicks into the main theme near the end.
2007 Worlds short program (El Tango de Roxanne)
2007 Worlds long program (The Lark Ascending) <-- She falls twice in this one near the end but everything up to that is so so so pretty. It's effortless to watch her. The music, the lines...!! also, my inner five-year-old is flipping out over her dress.
Of course Korea has been milking her for all she's worth so right now she's a giant cross-market commodity and, I think, the country's biggest celebrity. She's under craaaazy amounts of pressure. I want her to have a lion-shark-bulldog character who'll tell the Korean celebrity machine to back the fuck off (I have no doubt that the homeland pressure is the absolute worst). I hope she'll be alright. :<
I also like Mirai Nagasu. She is smooth yet lively! (Sounds like I'm describing wine.) And hella adorable, omg.
2010 US National Championships long program (Carmen)
yawww this was for my own reference more than anything else. I DON'T KNOW SQUAT ABOUT THIS SPORT (I DON'T EVEN KNOW HOW TO ROLLER SKATE YO), I JUST LIKE PRETTY STUFF.
They have been partners (and they are SUCH partners ~on the ice~, it is so wonderful to watch!!!! I LOVE THEM) for eighteen years and they got married just a few years ago. He went down on one knee to propose to her on the ice after one of their performances, but she misinterpreted the gesture and kneeled with him ~in solidarity. !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! They came out of retirement for the Olympics because it was like the only medal in the universe they hadn't won yet. NOW THAT THEY HAVE WON IT THEY ARE RETIRING FOR GOOD AND FOCUSING ON THEIR FAMBLY. <3___<3
I LOVE THEM. THEY FIST-BUMP BEFORE THEY START SKATING. SHE SMILES SO BIG EVERY TIME THEY DO A BIG ELEMENT. THEY BOTH JUMPED OVER THE BARRICADE TO HUG THEIR COACH. THEY WERE SO HAPPY WHEN THEY WON. THEY ARE SO BEAUTIFUL AND WARM TOGETHER. THEY ARE SO IN LOVE. I LOVE THEM I LOVE THEM I LOOOOOVE THEMMMMMMMMMM
The performances from the Olympics aren't up on youtube yet but this was their short program (Who Wants to Live Forever) for the 2009 - 2010 season and this was their long one (Adagio in G minor).
2002 Olympics short program (Kismet)
2003 Worlds long program (Turandot) <-- I LOVE this one
I have very little interest in men's figure skating. Women's figure skating hasn't started yet. I'm hella looking forward to it!
I'm in awe of Kim Yu-na! She is like the best in the universe right now. I don't know anything about figure skating, though apparently she is freaking textbook perfect, but just visually...!! The lines of her are amazingly pretty and it's all so easy and expressive. It's a thrill just to watch her go across the rink. Her skating is just so so pretty. (Note: I'm always surprised at how people choose to romanize Korean, because I saw her name in Korean and it's actually pronounced 'Yun-ah', not 'Yoo-nah'. But I didn't even know who she was until this Olympics, that's how bad of a Korean I am. They're going to revoke my card.)
2009 Worlds long program (Scheherazade)
2009 Skate America (James Bond medley) <-- It's a bit posey for my ~taste, but lol, it's a Bond medley and it's cute and she looks gr8 and I love how it follows the music, especially when it kicks into the main theme near the end.
2007 Worlds short program (El Tango de Roxanne)
2007 Worlds long program (The Lark Ascending) <-- She falls twice in this one near the end but everything up to that is so so so pretty. It's effortless to watch her. The music, the lines...!! also, my inner five-year-old is flipping out over her dress.
Of course Korea has been milking her for all she's worth so right now she's a giant cross-market commodity and, I think, the country's biggest celebrity. She's under craaaazy amounts of pressure. I want her to have a lion-shark-bulldog character who'll tell the Korean celebrity machine to back the fuck off (I have no doubt that the homeland pressure is the absolute worst). I hope she'll be alright. :<
I also like Mirai Nagasu. She is smooth yet lively! (Sounds like I'm describing wine.) And hella adorable, omg.
2010 US National Championships long program (Carmen)
yawww this was for my own reference more than anything else. I DON'T KNOW SQUAT ABOUT THIS SPORT (I DON'T EVEN KNOW HOW TO ROLLER SKATE YO), I JUST LIKE PRETTY STUFF.
status update
Jul. 20th, 2008 12:21 amMy plan was to grow my hair out long with bangs, either sideswept or the uh straight down kind. But recently my sister told me that this was her plan too, and we instantly agreed that we cannot both carry through with our plans. We are both fucking sick of people telling us that we look sooooooooooooooo alike and having the same haircut only exacerbates this problem. So now I'm thinking of getting a short layered bob-type thing. Thoughts?!?! (I know this is a tiresome question; that is not enough to stop me from asking it. LOL I'm a douche~!) I haven't had my hair shorter than shoulder-length since I was in elementary school; I don't know how good it'll look (same thing I said about bangs, el oh el).
I need to go to a hair salon anyway b/c I wanted to cut my bangs myself yesterday and I snocked off a good inch before I realized I didn't know what the hell I was doing. So now my bangs make me look like I have a wavy toupee. It doesn't look that bad, considering, but I gotta get this sorted out.
Generally I'm weirded out by youtube bloggeurs but I saw a couple of cute ones in the past week. Boys with accents talking about whatever their little hearts desired!! Triplehypercute!
It's weird to me when my favorite bands like bands I don't like. That's it! Deep thought for the day!
No wait! Here's another one! If a long enough time passes, I won't want to say anything I... wanted to say. I am talking about blog posts here.
Because I am a good and emotionally healthy person, I tend to think that confident people are douches. Because confidence = unlikability. A+ amirite
We've been rewatching Arrested Development, seasons 2 and 3. I forgot how much I liked the Rita arc. Charlize Theron is hella perfeckt. I got baby shakin' excited thinking about the Arrested Development movie too! I hadn't really thought about it since I first heard of the possibilty, and the magnitude of just HOW FUCKING GOOD THAT MOVIE IS GOING TO BE OMFFFGG made me almost pee myself, right there in the middle of the kitchen holding a cup of yogurt. OH YES.
Also not news, but it needs to be said: Fox is dumber than a box of hair. I want to beat them with a bag full of batteries. This show is a MODERN MASTERPIECE, it like makes television PERFECT. AND IT GOT CANCELED. D;
I want to believe the sentiment that says "everything you need is already inside you," but I don't think it's true for everyone. Or maybe I'm scared of thinking it's true for me. Or maybe I'm full of shit. Probably that last one.
Similarly I want to believe that most famous people are famous for a good reason, but I'm not sure of that. It'd be nice if they were though.
It's funny how ordinary statements get weirdly validated and structured if they're also a song lyric! Very appropriately, I can't think of any examples at the moment. Pretend I did, and agree with me.
Also I just found out that "he not busy, being born is busy dying" (noticed from the time I wasted like two hours looking at all the graffitti on library desks) is NOT nonsense; it's from a Bob Dylan song. Oh, I thought to myself, it's probably a song I don't know. Wrong and fails aplenty! It's from It's Alright Ma (I'm Only Bleeding). But I immediately recognized it as something I've seen before, and moreover I remembered really quickly where I had seen it, so maybe subconsciously I knew that it wasn't nonsense after all. Yes.
I was sitting next to my dad at church today (he came up on Saturday) and he was falling asleep and omg he does the same thing I do when I'm desperately trying to stay awake!!!!!11 THAT IS WHERE I GET IT FROM. I thought I was like short-circuiting or something but it's genetic. (I'm morbidly curious about every similarity I have to my dad btw. Awesome, I know.)
I start summer school at CSUS tomorrow. I'm nervous even though the course sounds like sophomore yr math. I can't handle school especially not after that last quarter. College is scarring me for life, I'm not even joking.
I need to go to a hair salon anyway b/c I wanted to cut my bangs myself yesterday and I snocked off a good inch before I realized I didn't know what the hell I was doing. So now my bangs make me look like I have a wavy toupee. It doesn't look that bad, considering, but I gotta get this sorted out.
Generally I'm weirded out by youtube bloggeurs but I saw a couple of cute ones in the past week. Boys with accents talking about whatever their little hearts desired!! Triplehypercute!
It's weird to me when my favorite bands like bands I don't like. That's it! Deep thought for the day!
No wait! Here's another one! If a long enough time passes, I won't want to say anything I... wanted to say. I am talking about blog posts here.
Because I am a good and emotionally healthy person, I tend to think that confident people are douches. Because confidence = unlikability. A+ amirite
We've been rewatching Arrested Development, seasons 2 and 3. I forgot how much I liked the Rita arc. Charlize Theron is hella perfeckt. I got baby shakin' excited thinking about the Arrested Development movie too! I hadn't really thought about it since I first heard of the possibilty, and the magnitude of just HOW FUCKING GOOD THAT MOVIE IS GOING TO BE OMFFFGG made me almost pee myself, right there in the middle of the kitchen holding a cup of yogurt. OH YES.
Also not news, but it needs to be said: Fox is dumber than a box of hair. I want to beat them with a bag full of batteries. This show is a MODERN MASTERPIECE, it like makes television PERFECT. AND IT GOT CANCELED. D;
I want to believe the sentiment that says "everything you need is already inside you," but I don't think it's true for everyone. Or maybe I'm scared of thinking it's true for me. Or maybe I'm full of shit. Probably that last one.
Similarly I want to believe that most famous people are famous for a good reason, but I'm not sure of that. It'd be nice if they were though.
It's funny how ordinary statements get weirdly validated and structured if they're also a song lyric! Very appropriately, I can't think of any examples at the moment. Pretend I did, and agree with me.
Also I just found out that "he not busy, being born is busy dying" (noticed from the time I wasted like two hours looking at all the graffitti on library desks) is NOT nonsense; it's from a Bob Dylan song. Oh, I thought to myself, it's probably a song I don't know. Wrong and fails aplenty! It's from It's Alright Ma (I'm Only Bleeding). But I immediately recognized it as something I've seen before, and moreover I remembered really quickly where I had seen it, so maybe subconsciously I knew that it wasn't nonsense after all. Yes.
I was sitting next to my dad at church today (he came up on Saturday) and he was falling asleep and omg he does the same thing I do when I'm desperately trying to stay awake!!!!!11 THAT IS WHERE I GET IT FROM. I thought I was like short-circuiting or something but it's genetic. (I'm morbidly curious about every similarity I have to my dad btw. Awesome, I know.)
I start summer school at CSUS tomorrow. I'm nervous even though the course sounds like sophomore yr math. I can't handle school especially not after that last quarter. College is scarring me for life, I'm not even joking.