hither and yon

My sister just pointed out that maybe Jonghyun should be romanized as Jonghyeon, just like in those old posts from when SHINee first debuted and no one knew the official English spelling!! noooooooooooooo!!! It's because his name has ㅕ in it (종현), like Taeyeon (태연) and Hyoyeon (효연). If it were Jonghyun with the "u", it would be ㅜ/ㅠ ("oo") like in Yunho (윤호)?? So, like... Jonghyoon (종휸)? LOL ;~; Maybe the rule is different when there's a consonant (ㅇ doesn't really count; it's like an empty placeholder sound), because Seohyun (서현) and like, ramyun (라면) are also spelled with "u" ("hyun"/"myun"). Plus sometimes ㅜ/ㅠ will be written as "oo" instead of "u" like in Yoona (윤아) even though I guess it should technically be Yun-ah? (As a sidenote, 'Kim Yuna' should seriously be spelled Yeon-ah (연아).) But Onew (온유) isn't spelled Onyu or Onyoo. omg romanization rules are so confusing. Maybe for names, they just go by aesthetics. That seems to be the most logical answer, lol.

Okay while I have the language bar set to Korean~ girl!Onew's name is not really Eunsook (은숙), it should be Onsook (온숙) because they kept the first part of all their first names, or a close approximation in Key's case. Similarly, Junghee (정희) should be Jonghee (종희). The other three names are correct though. (~quick proof of the Korean spelling~)

Now I'm googling Korean romanization rules. Such wonders and progress I make in my life! ?__?

I'm so tired. I dropped my brother off at his friend's birthday party, about 20-30 minutes away today. My throat still hurts a lot. x__x

unkind thoughts: more and more I think that in kpop ficdom, a lot of people just write original fic and attach kpop names to it to get readership. they are legit just "writing exercises"'; so little thought or insight goes into the story and characterization.

also a dude doesn't have to find women or their bodies REPULSIVE just because he's attracted to another man. so fucking tired of reading about guys being ~disgusted~ when a girl flirts with them or touches them or whatever. It just comes across as internalized misogyny, or some other form of self-hate (going on the fact that most people in fandom are female).

ALSO can hipsters and all the associated insincere, irresponsible, pretentious bullshit leave this planet asap? ("Hipsters, can you kindly please get the fuck out of my house?")

going thru oiam archives and fucking crycat at the very first picture she took of jjong.

( stanning jjong and his stans all day, everyday )

edit @ 8:38pm omg fuck you lj! why does it keep scrambling up all the html whenever I try to edit >c

Here is a "wtf Onew" spam. (This is pretty much all my Onew media.)

( SORRY I'VE BEEN SHOUTING "U FAKE BITCH" SO MUCH )

LOL OKAY SO THIS PICSPAM WAS STARTED IN JUNE OF 2008 AND I'VE ALWAYS BEEN BOTHERED THAT I NEVER FINISHED IT. THREE YEARS AFTER I STARTED IT + ALMOST 2 YEARS AFTER THEY SPLIT UP IS THE BEST TIME OF COURSE.


I have no idea what my thought processes were when I was putting this spam together. I didn't have any non-disco pixx to share and care, but I spent a long time copy-pasting those fronds.

I don't know how to start this.

( this was perhaps not the wisest time of day to do this spam )

I feel really accomplished now! I have finally finished this THREE YEAR old spam. And oh man, making this post brought back so many more memories than I thought it would. I really loved these tragic weird white boys. <3__<3 Thanks for everything, disco. It was fun~

I am some kind of poster child for POOR TIME MANAGEMENT and LOW IMPULSE CONTROL. Watching so many SHINee videos on youtube, just so many. ;________; I LOVE JONGHYUN SO FUCKING MUCH. I smile at everything he does even the awkward embarrassing shit. THIS HAS NEVER HAPPENED BEFORE. Embarrassing stuff usually just makes me embarrassed. LIKE THAT VIDEO OF HIM BAWLING. I usually cringe so badly at stuff like that. But I've rewatched that video like twelve times. Because. He is the most precious thing. And I love him. ;______;

I'm going to be 22 soon and I have no idea how to react to it! 22 is a nothing age. It means that I'm going to be a twentysomething and that's about it. No more cultural cues for what I'm supposed to be doing!

Something was tickling the side of my face while I walking to the library this morning and I was like "goddamn I need a haircut" and brushed it out of my way. BUT IT WAS A SPIDER. WTF. WHY. I am now paranoid that every sensation is another spider. (Heey "Every Sensation is Another Spider" could be a great indie douchebag band song title.) How did it get on my face?! 

UGH and another albino cricket thing showed in our room. Where the fuck are these bugs coming from. It scared the hell out of me because somebody put baby in a corner I sit really close against the wall and the cricket was crawling up it right next to me. I had to ask my cousin to deal with it. If it was on the ground I would've anvil-dropped my sister's biology textbook on it like I did with Albino Cricket Thing the First but it was on the wall and ughhh IT JUMPS noooooooo.

I finally finished this dumb playlist for myself. I started it TWO YEARS ago, no joke. It's not even some huge epic playlist, it's only twenty songs and the order is all fucked up because I have no sense of flow. Why am I so bad at these things?? How do I manage to procrastinate on shit I don't even need to do? I will share with Theoretical Internet Audience anyway.

I can't tell if I'm improving or whatever. I don't want to run myself over with a truck which is a good sign. I wish I could stop obsessing about my appearance. I know I'm fine, I am perfectly okay.

Relatedly, I was rereading old entries. Wowwwww I sound really really dumb in some of them. For the future!me who is self-obsessively rereading this: I know I sound really really dumb in this entry too.

It is annoying when someone hits you in the head with their backpack. It is also annoying when the people on either side of you talk to each other over you during a lecture. What is wrong with people, do they actually need to be told NOT to do that? It is also annoying when people walk slowly and make it impossible to pass them. I have wished so many times that I could just put my foot on their back and push. Especially on the stairs.

I love Romeo+Juliette. I can't even see how I can not like it. I AM COMPLETELY OFF THE DEEP END NOW. Jonghyun sounds so fucking good in it. Instant spiritual boner. (omg he's younger than me. Emotionally I feel like 16 years old, tops, so I don't feel that ~wrong~ about watching gifs 100x more than necessary, but it is WEIRD. He was born in 1990!! WHAT IS THAT ABOUT. Also my intro soash discussion is full of first years and we were discussing a reading on the OJ Simpson case and they were all like, "I was only four when that trial happened!" and ugh why are people so young?? Seriously, how can something born in the 1990s be a fully-grown person??) God his voice is so good. 

Pointless comparison that is only relevant to me: SHINee AND DISCO. Jonghyun and bden. Umm I don't have anything to say about this. My SHINee thing just reminds me of my disco thing and I relistened to pretty much all the disco on my iPod. kpop just works so fucking differently from anything in the US music industry.

LOL HE'S SO LOUD AND DUMB AND AMUSING IN HELLO BABY. EVERYTHING'S SO EMBARRASSING ON THIS SHOW. I LOVE HIM.

DEAR GOD WHAT IS HAPPENING TO ME

I FUCKING
LOVE
THIS SONG



I LOVE THE DANCE AND I LOVE THE ACTUAL SONG
OMG
I GET SO PUMPED UP
IT'S SO DRAMATIC AND DUMB AND BADASS AND I LOOOOOOOOOOOOVE IT SOOOOOOOOOO MUCH ;________;

0:15 - 0:25 OMGGGG WATCH OVER AND OVER OMGGGGGG

I LOVE WATCHING BANDS CHANGE WHO EVER'S IN THE CENTER AND SM BANDS ARE FUCKING ON POINT WITH THAT SHIT OMG
(NO ONE CAN BEAT SNSD THOUGH)

THAT GUY IN FRONT WITH HIS HYPNOWHIRL SHIRT NEEDS TO STOP SMILING WITH HIS STUPID FACE ;_________;

I LOVE THEIR VOICES WHICH IS KILLING ME
KILLING MEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEE

YEAHHH "LOVEAHOLIC ROBOTRONIC"!!!!!! ALMOST AS GOOD AS "RING DING RING DING RING DING DONG FANTASTIC FANTASTIC FANTASTIC x200 ELASTIC ELASTIC ELASTIC x2000000"

;_________;

YOU DO NOT EVEN KNOW

THIS BAND IS CALLED SHINEE AND THEY ARE SO EGREGIOUS

EGREGIOUS

;___________;

I LOVE THIS SONG

I am going to make that goddamn kpop post. AND I WILL MAKE A MOTHERFUCKING HUGE PRIMER TO SNSD. I LOOOOOOOVE THEM OMG. I SPENT THE ENTIRE WEEKEND DOING THE EXACT OPPOSITE OF STATISTICS HOMEWORK, I.E. WATCHING GYMNASTICS VIDEOS AND FIVE DIFFERENT VERSIONS OF GEE IN A ROW ON YOUTUBE. AT THIS POINT I WILL SPIRITUALLY BEAT PEOPLE WITH A PILLOWCASE FULL OF BATTERIES IF THEY HATE ON SNSD. THEY ARE AMAZING AND I LOVE THEM. <3_______<3

GODDAMNIT I JUST FUCKED UP

This squishy-cute cool guy from San Francisco messaged me, and I replied back, except then (because I'm a loser) I re-read what I wrote 10 minutes later, panicked that maybe I sounded bitchy, AND THEN FLIPPED OUT AND WROTE HIM A SPAZZY APOLOGY EMAIL THAT ENDED WITH "KINDLY PRETEND THAT THIS DIDN'T HAPPEN" BECAUSE I DIDN'T KNOW WHAT ELSE TO DO. AUUUGHHH AWKWARDDDDDDD.

Okay I need to stop hanging around OkCupid. It is turning me into a bigger creeper than I already am. o____o