hither and yon

Normally I wouldn't capitalize all the words because you aren't supposed to do that in Fronch but the band is not really French, so ~I just capitalize the way I feel~

I've been sick for a couple of days now even though I was asleep more than I was awake for the same couple of days. The cumulative effect is that I feel like I've been asleep longer than I've been alive. I'm just so tired. I haven't eaten anything all day and yesterday I basically had a waffle and a few strawberries, ende.

I think my flash drive is broken. I am so dead inside right now. I had ALL my pictures on there. ALL OF THEM. You guys don't understand, I save EVERYTHING. There was a fucking CATACOMB of folders in that drive. I'M SO DEAD INSIDE. I have most everything backed up from April 2009, but that's almost a year ago. I KNEW I SHOULD'VE BEEN MORE PARANOID

MELANCHOLY

I'm lonely from all the things I don't understand, experience, appreciate, etc. From the time I was in the throes of pre-adolescent fuckery, I wanted to be a thousand different things at once so I ended up being nothing. Depression = paralyzed with hope (tm Maria Bamford).

Plus, I'm super crazy. I've been going to my mom's office to "help" with work (actually I'm useless) and my mom told me the other day that her boss said I was pretty (not in a creepy way). I was flattered for a second before I thought MAYBE SHE MADE THAT UP TO MAKE ME FEEL BETTER ABOUT BEING UGLY. These days I even know I'm not ugly most of the time, so where did that thought come from? Unending paranoia I suppose.

om nom nom new fandom om nom nom Sherlock Holmes om nom nom Jude Law

Half the time he looks like a fucking serial killer and the other half he just looks like an asshole. Nevertheless he is honestly very good at being very beautiful. *____*

Let's get this out of the way: this fucker is AMAZING in the face. 

( DAMN STRAIGHT IT'S A PICSPAM )

In closing,GODDAMN

My plan was to grow my hair out long with bangs, either sideswept or the uh straight down kind. But recently my sister told me that this was her plan too, and we instantly agreed that we cannot both carry through with our plans. We are both fucking sick of people telling us that we look sooooooooooooooo alike and having the same haircut only exacerbates this problem. So now I'm thinking of getting a short layered bob-type thing. Thoughts?!?! (I know this is a tiresome question; that is not enough to stop me from asking it. LOL I'm a douche~!) I haven't had my hair shorter than shoulder-length since I was in elementary school; I don't know how good it'll look (same thing I said about bangs, el oh el).

I need to go to a hair salon anyway b/c I wanted to cut my bangs myself yesterday and I snocked off a good inch before I realized I didn't know what the hell I was doing. So now my bangs make me look like I have a wavy toupee. It doesn't look that bad, considering, but I gotta get this sorted out.

Generally I'm weirded out by youtube bloggeurs but I saw a couple of cute ones in the past week. Boys with accents talking about whatever their little hearts desired!! Triplehypercute!

It's weird to me when my favorite bands like bands I don't like. That's it! Deep thought for the day!

No wait! Here's another one! If a long enough time passes, I won't want to say anything I... wanted to say. I am talking about blog posts here.

Because I am a good and emotionally healthy person, I tend to think that confident people are douches. Because confidence = unlikability. A+ amirite

We've been rewatching Arrested Development, seasons 2 and 3. I forgot how much I liked the Rita arc. Charlize Theron is hella perfeckt. I got baby shakin' excited thinking about the Arrested Development movie too! I hadn't really thought about it since I first heard of the possibilty, and the magnitude of just HOW FUCKING GOOD THAT MOVIE IS GOING TO BE OMFFFGG made me almost pee myself, right there in the middle of the kitchen holding a cup of yogurt. OH YES. 

Also not news, but it needs to be said: Fox is dumber than a box of hair. I want to beat them with a bag full of batteries. This show is a MODERN MASTERPIECE, it like makes television PERFECT. AND IT GOT CANCELED. D;

I want to believe the sentiment that says "everything you need is already inside you," but I don't think it's true for everyone. Or maybe I'm scared of thinking it's true for me. Or maybe I'm full of shit. Probably that last one.

Similarly I want to believe that most famous people are famous for a good reason, but I'm not sure of that. It'd be nice if they were though.

It's funny how ordinary statements get weirdly validated and structured if they're also a song lyric! Very appropriately, I can't think of any examples at the moment. Pretend I did, and agree with me.

Also I just found out that "he not busy, being born is busy dying" (noticed from the time I wasted like two hours looking at all the graffitti on library desks) is NOT nonsense; it's from a Bob Dylan song. Oh, I thought to myself, it's probably a song I don't know. Wrong and fails aplenty! It's from It's Alright Ma (I'm Only Bleeding). But I immediately recognized it as something I've seen before, and moreover I remembered really quickly where I had seen it, so maybe subconsciously I knew that it wasn't nonsense after all. Yes.

I was sitting next to my dad at church today (he came up on Saturday) and he was falling asleep and omg he does the same thing I do when I'm desperately trying to stay awake!!!!!11 THAT IS WHERE I GET IT FROM. I thought I was like short-circuiting or something but it's genetic. (I'm morbidly curious about every similarity I have to my dad btw. Awesome, I know.)

I start summer school at CSUS tomorrow. I'm nervous even though the course sounds like sophomore yr math. I can't handle school especially not after that last quarter. College is scarring me for life, I'm not even joking.