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SCREAMING

MY MASTERPIECE DVD CAME

MY HEAD IS IN A ROAR

I'M SO HAPPY I CAN'T FEEL ANYTHING

CRYING & DYING

THANK YOU FOR YOUR TIME

edit

LOL MASTERPIECE DVD PHOTOSHOOT

IDC ;w;

( EVERYTHING IS IMPORTANT )

( ceci n'est pas un pipe: scattered half-assed meta attempt for Jonghyun )

note: under constant neverending edit (NOT EXAGGERATING)
note @ 110723: wow I think I may actually be able to leave this alone now. it's as complete as it's gonna get, beside some ~supplemental source posts I've decided to lose my mind over :d

THROWING MY ENTIRE LIFE ACROSS THE ROOM

I
CAN'T
FUCKING
TAKE IT ANYMORE

LK;AJSDFS;LAKSDJF;ALKSDJF
A;SKLFDJ
A;LKSDNFA;K,NN,AD
;AKLSDJF

!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

WHY IS MY FACE ALL RED!!!!!! HOW CAN THEY BE SO FUCKING CUTE GODDAMN THEM ALL

DON'T EVEN TRY TO TALK TO ME RIGHT NOW THEORETICAL INTERNET AUDIENCE I AM FUCKING OUT OF ORDER

edit @ 6:58 OKAY NO I CAN'T LEAVE IT AT THAT

I WAS LIKE CLAWING AT MY FACE AND CLUTCHING MY PEARLS WHILE WATCHING IT

OKAY SO IT'S ONE THING TO BE PROUD OF SEEING THEM DANCE AND HOW TOGETHER THEY ARE AND HOW FLUIDLY AND UNFF-ILY THEY HIT THEIR MOVES

BUT IT'S ANOTHER TO FEEL PROUD LOOKING AT THEM JUST SITTING THERE WITH THEIR HAIR???? WHAT IS WRONG WITH ME ;~~~~~~~; JUST LIKE WOW LOOK AT YOU, YOUR HEADS ARE ALL DIFFERENT COLORS I'M SO PROUD OF YOU GUYS!!!!!! MY LIFE IS SLIPPING THROUGH MY FINGERS

JONGHYUN AND TAEMIN SWITCHED PLACED IN THE NON-LINEAR INTERVIEW FORMATION SO NOW JONGHO ARE SITTING DOWN NEXT TO EACH OTHER. (!!!!!!!)

MINHO'S JACKET LOOKS LIKE A HOT WHEELS CAR FROM THE 90s

KEY IS SMUG AT BEING THE BEST AT JAPANESE

ONEW APOLOGIZES FOR MAKING A PUN ABOUT FROGS GOING HOME

TAEMIN HAS A COSPLAYER

JONGHYUN .....................................................................................................................................................
OH GOD I WAS SPACING OUT WATCHING ALL THOSE PERIODS MARCH ACROSS THE SCREEN
JONGHYUN ..............................................................................................................................................................................
;~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~;
JONGHYUN ...........................................................................................................!!!!!!!!!!!!

YES OKAY THAT'S IT EXACTLY

Uh, basically, Jonghyun looked really, really good in December. I don't need anything else.

( till the end of the year )

Pt II: Gayo Daejuns and photoshoots~

MINHO/JONGHYUN
FUCK YEAH BROTP

( pics+gifs+adjectives )

Wow I actually felt okay about that final! AND I checked my stats grade again; it says I officially have an A. ?!!?!?!?!?!?! WELL OKAY. I'M NOT GOING TO COMPLAIN EVEN THOUGH THAT MAKES NO SENSE. Please god do not let that be a mistake, pls pls plsssss.

Also I got all dressed up today because I'm only on campus a few hours. I feel cute as hell even though I know my eyes are all dead from my glorious two hours of sleep. Mrowwwr.

Celebr8ion!!! Don't give a shit, gonna post this gif+picspam I've had ready!!!

( longcat is long )

Current Mood: :D

I JUST STARED AT A PICTURE OF JONGHYUN TILTING HIS HEAD LOOKING OFF INTO SPACE, TILTED MY HEAD IN THE SAME DIRECTION, AND WONDERED WHAT HE WAS THINKING ABOUT

I'VE GOT TO GET A GRIP ON MYSELF

Current Music: WAKE UP CALL FROM LIFE

What the hell, my posting pattern has been consistent across three weeks: post every day Sunday through Wednesday, don't post anything Thursday - Saturday. I guess that makes me look like I have some semblance of a life but I do not! idk why it's turning out like this~ Also, I assume that if I'm your fronds list, you do not mind useless spam because blogging is my life blood again. And I will most likely be obsessed with kpop until the end of time.

From my bullshit study assignment:

The self-organization and collective action of women (or a "women's movement") is a decisive determinant of the relative "social constraints" and "body of law" codifying the relative personal, civil, and political rights of women or of "gender inequality."

THIS SENTENCE. SAYS. NOTHING. It is a completely null set. Okay, it does say something, but in the wordiest and most meaningless way possible. You could condense it into five words, "women's movements change gender inequality," but he HAAAAS to cram all those fucking clauses and useless "phrases" in there. What the fuck, that's the kind of shit I do, and this asshole is being PAID for it. I fucking hate the professor. And academia in general for its douchemongering support of assholes like him. Ugh the worst is that he isn't even the worst.

fuckin A why am I not able to understand regression? I have so much dumb.

Speaking of which, my angst with people used to be more focused on how much of an asshole everyone was. Now I'm in the process of accepting how fucking stupid people are. I include myself.

It was windy yesterday! My favorite weather. I always get in a good mood when I walk when it's windy. lol alliteration~ It's finally starting to get cold now. Winter clothes are starting to appear and omfg, I LOVE winter clothes. COATS. GODDAMN.

( segregating the kpop )

( a series of creeper comments about jonghyun )

i'm at an optional ~statistix mini-course~ in stats computer lab. was bad idea, is advanced beyond my class and i already did not wtf is going on w/ regression

there's a guy from my class here too. i wonder if he is also thinking this was a bad idea. wtf why did prof recommend this ~mini-course~ it is not a good review for the class at all, it is for like stats majors or people doing research

girl kitty-corner from me is looking up the beatles on itunes

i am enjoying looking at/listening to lecturer. he is ph.d stats student. tall slim sarcastique japanese guy. his face makes you want to keep looking at it. he's kind of beautiful. his outfit ever-so-slightly does not match. he's wearing like these brown leather loafer slippers with a buckle. omg i love buckles. his voice is very dry and he has a very slight accent. mostly in the way he drops the articles or plurals/verb tense endings in his sentences.

i am pretending that i'm typing notes by looking up every so often and staring intently at the power point.

bad thing about being into kpop is that there is no way to look up anything in front of other people. so embarrassing. just want to stare at jonghyun's face in another batch of five hundred pics/gifs/vids

if kpop had anywhere near the ~quality of fic that bandom or popslash got i would die a million happy deaths. i guess this is the trade-off for the number of girls and attractive people. i still don't get how popslash ever got a following, basic white boys everywhere. it is worse x1000 for the jonas brothers.

bifor i got into kpop i thought the fandom was huge. it is but it's obvs internatl and the kfans keep their shit locked down and there are things in diff languages etc. even in the english-speaking fandom there's not a lot of fandom content. besides wank. the avg age strikes me as verrrrry young. like there are a lot of tumblrs. the fic reflects this

on the other hand, the media content is gorgeous. shinee fans are especially amazing. the fan photos are seriously professional quality. the cameras are good but the fans are really skilled/talented. there are like multiangled fan cams, it's like a dvd for real. onnn the other other hand, ugh it's hard to find well-subbed videos plus the korean broadcasting companies are stingy cockblocks and keepp removing shit from youtube. this REALLY makes no sense, the subs are literally free promotion. if you're watching subs on youtube you obvs are not and cannot be pt of the normal consuming audience. the youtube clips can only get them more money.

my bod is so misshapen and embarrassing. and i need new shoes.

stats people are so inherently nerdy. they just like data. i am jealous, i wish i just liked information for its own sake. i srsly do not enjoy learning. am lazy as fuck

the borders on route to school is closing down and they're having a close-out sale. gotta get on that

soc 1 class continues to be excruciating. the prof is a pathetic drama queen. lol i really hate him! nothing he says has a point. i'm worried about the final b/c i do not understand what the fuck we are supposed to be doing. i don't feel like i've learned anything and i don't even feel like it's my fault!

i legit have a crush on jonghyun. i swear i have NEVER had such a physical reaction to my other media obsessions. that peace sign in hello!!!!! i srsly start giggling unctrllably. my sister thinks i'm crazy. i think he is the first asian guy (lol or non-white in general) that i've reaaaally loved. i'm rly starting to see the similarities in the people i'm ~drawn to: big eyes, nice cheekbones/jawline, embarrassing and/or dorky in some way, good voice. and once i'm drawn, it's fucking game over, i'm in for life. JONGHYUN

oh the lecture is wrapping up

bye lecturer, i like your face + shirt. srry i don't understand anything you're talking about D:

THIS IS A POST ABOUT KIM JONGHYUN

( cavalcade of pics+gifs+adjectives )

( edit @ 101221 )

Normally I wouldn't capitalize all the words because you aren't supposed to do that in Fronch but the band is not really French, so ~I just capitalize the way I feel~

I've been sick for a couple of days now even though I was asleep more than I was awake for the same couple of days. The cumulative effect is that I feel like I've been asleep longer than I've been alive. I'm just so tired. I haven't eaten anything all day and yesterday I basically had a waffle and a few strawberries, ende.

I think my flash drive is broken. I am so dead inside right now. I had ALL my pictures on there. ALL OF THEM. You guys don't understand, I save EVERYTHING. There was a fucking CATACOMB of folders in that drive. I'M SO DEAD INSIDE. I have most everything backed up from April 2009, but that's almost a year ago. I KNEW I SHOULD'VE BEEN MORE PARANOID

MELANCHOLY

I'm lonely from all the things I don't understand, experience, appreciate, etc. From the time I was in the throes of pre-adolescent fuckery, I wanted to be a thousand different things at once so I ended up being nothing. Depression = paralyzed with hope (tm Maria Bamford).

Plus, I'm super crazy. I've been going to my mom's office to "help" with work (actually I'm useless) and my mom told me the other day that her boss said I was pretty (not in a creepy way). I was flattered for a second before I thought MAYBE SHE MADE THAT UP TO MAKE ME FEEL BETTER ABOUT BEING UGLY. These days I even know I'm not ugly most of the time, so where did that thought come from? Unending paranoia I suppose.

om nom nom new fandom om nom nom Sherlock Holmes om nom nom Jude Law

Half the time he looks like a fucking serial killer and the other half he just looks like an asshole. Nevertheless he is honestly very good at being very beautiful. *____*

Let's get this out of the way: this fucker is AMAZING in the face.

( DAMN STRAIGHT IT'S A PICSPAM )

In closing,

GODDAMN

Current Music: Ou Est Le Swimming Pool - Dance the Way I Feel

GODDAMNIT I JUST FUCKED UP

This squishy-cute cool guy from San Francisco messaged me, and I replied back, except then (because I'm a loser) I re-read what I wrote 10 minutes later, panicked that maybe I sounded bitchy, AND THEN FLIPPED OUT AND WROTE HIM A SPAZZY APOLOGY EMAIL THAT ENDED WITH "KINDLY PRETEND THAT THIS DIDN'T HAPPEN" BECAUSE I DIDN'T KNOW WHAT ELSE TO DO. AUUUGHHH AWKWARDDDDDDD.

Okay I need to stop hanging around OkCupid. It is turning me into a bigger creeper than I already am. o____o

Current Mood: MY
Current Location: FUCK
Current Music: LIFE

McCartney II = RIDICULOUSLY awesome, except for the song called "Frozen Jap," which I have renamed "Frozen RACIAL SLUR" in my iTunes. I found ONE interview (here) where someone asks him about it and his explanation is not too bad. Basically, "Frozen Jap," "jap" being an abbreviation of "Japan... Japanese winter... Mt. Fuji... ~Orientalness~," was a working title that stuck. In Europe (at the time? I'm not sure how it is now) the word wasn't too terrible, so he only heard protests after the album came out. He changed the title for the Japanese edition to "Frozen Japanese." I can believe this. It's definitely damage control, but I buy it. I did some (shallow) research and there are indeed regional differences in how offensive the word is. Like in most of Asia, today at least, "Jap" is an acceptable abbreviation for "Japan/Japanese" so... yeah. It's enough to make me feel better. It's good that I found this interview and someone fucking asked about it; I was going crazy for a while. "He wouldn't have called it that if he knew how it's a RACIAL SLUR in some parts of the world... but how could he not know?!? OMMMGGGGG WHAT IS THIS FUCKERY?!?" Racial insensitivity is a pretty big fucking dealbreaker for me. Paul doesn't have a history of it, more the opposite actually, but yeah, fuck, Paul McCartney, why couldn't you have saved me the heartache and called it "Frozen Polar Bear" or SOME fucking thing?? Or I wish he would've changed the song title completely, not just for the Japanese version. Well, seeing how I only found ONE interview where someone addressed it, I guess it was not a big enough deal to merit the change. Urgh argh oorgh.

I have a midterm due tomorrow and it's pretty bullshit. Like "write an essay that addresses all parts of a really broad topic in one-page-double-spaced" bullshit. That's not an essay, that's a fucking short answer. The readings are boring and dry and full of a lot of nothing, much like my boring, dry, full of a lot of nothing professor. This MacKinnon person is fucking tiresome. There are like 10 pages of her explaining why all previous work on the subject has been WRONG WRONG WRONG. Jesus, just fucking explain why you're RIGHT or just fucking say what exactly you're adding to the fucking discussion. People are, like, always on the defensive in academia. At least in the social sciences. ~MYYYY perspective is necessary because everyone else thus far has neglected the most IMPORTANT PART EVER!!~ But whereas some writers limit this to the first page or so, MacKinnon just goes onnnnnnnnn and onnnnnnnnnnnnn and onnnnnnnnnnn. And she's uses words like "concomitant" (adj.; existing or occuring with something else; concurrent) and "detumescence" (n.; reduction or subsidence of swelling) and "sui generis" (adj.; of his, her, its, or their own kind; unique) when she could've just said "I am ostentatious as fuck" and "I have poor sentence construction and leave pronouns hanging around willy-nilly without any referrents" and "SORRY YOU'RE NOT GETTING ANY SLEEP BECAUSE OF MY WRETCHED ESSAY." Yeah, me too.

Some guy in my co-op is into 10 year olds who wear corrective boots, I guess, because he hit on me while I walking out of my aparment. At first I was really confused, all OMG DID I DO SOMETHING WRONG? WHY ARE YOU TALKING TO ME? Because he just came out of nowhere and was like "do you live there?" I was all "omg I'm sorry I put the regular trash in one of the recycling bins that one time, I couldn't find the bin for the regular trash!!" but then he just uh started hitting on me? He asked if he could ~knock on my door~ sometime and I just said uhhhh okay because I was flustered as hell. WTF I look like a middle schooler. And I'm wearing a boot! Guys, I don't know if I'm okay with pedo boot-fetishists. (The exchange wasn't as creepy as I made it sound btw, I am just scared of people. And LIFE!)

This entry was started on Saturday when I was sadcat and finished today, when I am not so sadcat. Mm.

I was flipping through my bookmarks and came across something I had uh obviously forgotten about. As an addendum to my "rrgh twitter suxx" post: Color War 2008 which, instead of bitching about twitter, finds a way to make it an actual fun social space. Much more constructive. PS, Ze Frank is one of my most favorite People I Don't Actually Know in the world.

Anyway now I will continue bitching about everything. I have a very strange outlook on the world at this stage of my life. It's like pessimistic nihilism with a hair-trigger hard-on for the ~goodness of man and ~worth of life. Also I fetishize hope pretty hard. I am both desperate to and scared of Believing in people, myself, god, anything. It's a sum total of being a fuck-up and not knowing how to recover from things. Instead I'm just devastated all the time. ~Everyday is a risk I can't take because I don't know how to come back from it. It's self-perpetuating fear, yeah, but it's not unfounded. Like, I know my life is worse off for being scurred all the time but what's the alternative? Shit if there's one thing the past four years have taught me, it's that things can always ALWAYS get worse.

The Lexabro's not working. Or worse, it IS working, but I'm so fucked-up and shitty that even with the help I'm still a mess. I'm a really sad person.

I guess I have opinions on X-Men! X2 is easily the best movie in the franchise. The new Wolverine movie looks kinda dumb. By kinda I mean shyeah. By shyeah I mean I wish I hadn't eaten the last cookie yesterday. Emma Frost does not look nearly as fabulous enough as she deserves. That was Twilight-level dazzle in the commercials. I will never ever ever understand the appeal of Taylor Kitsch. He is SUCH A BAD ACTOR. WHY DOES NO ONE MENTION THIS???? HE IS TERRIBLE. Also he is fug as hell. I don't understand anyone. Finally, if there is Cyclops in the movie, wherefore no James Marsden? I don't care if he is supposed to be teenager!Cyclops. James Mraaarrrrrrrrrrrsdennnnnn. *__* Man I wish I was more into comic books.

I went to Fridge's cousin's birthday party on Saturday and got a bit drunk. I don't think I did anything embarrassing but I feel embarrassed anyway. I feel like I am overflowing with want and that everyone can see it. I am neeeeeeeeeeedy. But also, I hate people. It's a tricky situation. For example, I hella wanted (male) attention even though the party was filled with condescending bastards. Tip, you cannot tell jokes to condescending bastards because they will take you seriously and be all "LOL did you JUST say that? THIS GIRL IS SOOO DRUNK." Fuck you, douchebag, I was using my sarcastic voice.

So afterward I missed the last step whilst walking back to the apt and rolled my ankle. Trying to take care of it was a bitch and a half; it took all day today since the medical center isn't open on the weekends. Very convenient, that. It turns out that I fractured the tip of my left fibula. The brace/cast felt like sex when they put it on, omg, soooo comforting. Crutches are hard fucking work. It took me 45 minutes to walk back to the apt when it usually takes 15 minutes and by the end of it I was so tired I could've cried. It was really humiliating and pathetic before I got the crutches though, because I couldn't put any weight on my foot so I seriously had to hop around from like bench to lamp post to side of a building etc. The worst part is that I'm not going to able to work with Library Guy anymore since I can't uh work in stacks. <-- creeper

Midterm was not good. Still don't have a research paper topic. I don't fucking care, I just want to get the fuck out. Even more so with this fracture nonsense.

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SCREAMING
give 'em all the slip
well i think we all knew this was coming
heart in fist
twelfth one
dibidibidis
i know exactly what i want and who i want to be
CHRIST ON HIGH
ocean always knows
warmer than the sun
YES, THIS IS THE REALITY I WANTED
will nature make a man of me yet
AUUUUGH
post eclipse!
i like marx

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Entries tagged with don't you know i mean boys

SCREAMING

give 'em all the slip

well i think we all knew this was coming

heart in fist

twelfth one

dibidibidis

i know exactly what i want and who i want to be

CHRIST ON HIGH

ocean always knows

warmer than the sun

YES, THIS IS THE REALITY I WANTED

will nature make a man of me yet

AUUUUGH

post eclipse!

i like marx