got no human grace
Sep. 17th, 2008 12:20 amRereading old IM convos and omg I'm so maudlin. I don't know why I use that word so much since I always think of like a French clown in the 60s drowning his sorrows in sherry and wine, which is a depressing and creepy image. (COULROPHOBIA) I guess I just feel like a drunk French clown now.
Senior year conversations. I wish I could've known that it was fine, it was okay to be sad, it was okay to cry. I think this every time I read anything I wrote during senior year, after Christmas.
I'm really grateful to anyone and everyone who listened to me then. I'm grateful now too.
LOL I used the phrase "billy-o" in one of these convos.
I want to rewatch Spaced and Shaun of the Dead and Hot Fuzz but on a proper screen.
Okay today in the car I was thinking about a person wearing huge sunglasses, and in my mind the sunglasses just kept getting bigger and bigger, and I had to STOP THINKING because I got scared???? I explained that really badly. Ugh I also got grossed out thinking about having to write with a giant pencil. There's something freaky about simple objects that happen to be REALLY HUGE.
The pastor of the church my mom goes to is pretty amazing. For the record I am atheist, bordering agnostic, and I can be really annoying and defensive about it, but overall I'm not derisive about religion (or I try not to be), and people like this pastor are a big part of the reason why. In this case, he talks about Christianity the way it's meant to be, a lifestyle guided by compassion and love, toward "God" and toward people and toward yourself. He's just a really cool good guy.
Man this entry was INCREDIBLY disjointed. Wowowowow.
relivingstars (3:30:14 AM): HUH
counttheplanes (3:30:17 AM): LOL
relivingstars (3:30:18 AM): LOL
counttheplanes (3:30:20 AM): LOL
relivingstars (3:30:30 AM): HUH
counttheplanes (3:30:33 AM): LOL
Senior year conversations. I wish I could've known that it was fine, it was okay to be sad, it was okay to cry. I think this every time I read anything I wrote during senior year, after Christmas.
I'm really grateful to anyone and everyone who listened to me then. I'm grateful now too.
LOL I used the phrase "billy-o" in one of these convos.
I want to rewatch Spaced and Shaun of the Dead and Hot Fuzz but on a proper screen.
Okay today in the car I was thinking about a person wearing huge sunglasses, and in my mind the sunglasses just kept getting bigger and bigger, and I had to STOP THINKING because I got scared???? I explained that really badly. Ugh I also got grossed out thinking about having to write with a giant pencil. There's something freaky about simple objects that happen to be REALLY HUGE.
The pastor of the church my mom goes to is pretty amazing. For the record I am atheist, bordering agnostic, and I can be really annoying and defensive about it, but overall I'm not derisive about religion (or I try not to be), and people like this pastor are a big part of the reason why. In this case, he talks about Christianity the way it's meant to be, a lifestyle guided by compassion and love, toward "God" and toward people and toward yourself. He's just a really cool good guy.
Man this entry was INCREDIBLY disjointed. Wowowowow.
relivingstars (3:30:14 AM): HUH
counttheplanes (3:30:17 AM): LOL
relivingstars (3:30:18 AM): LOL
counttheplanes (3:30:20 AM): LOL
relivingstars (3:30:30 AM): HUH
counttheplanes (3:30:33 AM): LOL
