THINGS I HATE
(they are related)
1. When people act like not reading a lot of books or not knowing the meaning of a word makes you unintelligent or uneducated or whatever. ESPECIALLY when it's used in fiction by an author to point out a ~difference~ between two characters. UGH, just gtfo. This concept is seriously so fucking stupid to me.
2. When people act like stammering or otherwise taking a long time to physically say something makes you unintelligent et al. People conflate this with like being INCOHERENT which srsly, gtfo, or with actually SAYING something unintelligent. Why are people so relentlessly annoying??
I feel like I should find a better way to generalize grievances than just saying "people" all vague, but I can't think of anything!
I really, really love David Bowie's "A New Career In A New Town." It has a lot of good associations for me too. I think music is the best kind of sense memory. It's the strongest kind for me, anyway. For certain songs, when I listen to them, it's like I'm me at every moment I listened to that song, all at once in that one space. When I listen to a song like that, it's hard to want to leave the world.
The nanowrimo is seriously a disaster. I figured out sort of what I wanted to do yesterday. From the beginning I wanted to write someone who was a very thinly disguised stand-in for ~me~, and I still want to do that. But yesterday I made the breakthrough that I wanted to write about a family which was good because now I finally have something to write about, and bad because now everything seems creepy.
More crazy! Sometimes when I'm alone I'm all like self, you are pretty good-looking! IDK what happens in my brain. Maybe it's because I'm alone, so I have nothing to compare it to? idk idk idk
(originally combined with
this entry under "consolidation nation")
