silent sigh
Jun. 5th, 2010 02:52 am( body image derp )
hello we meet again
May. 28th, 2010 06:27 amI am awake right now because... why? WHY. I have like twelve thousand things to do for the Korean school student exhibition tonight and I'm not doing any of it, as I am very busy being too tired to sleep!!!!!!!
I've been running every other day for the past few weeks but I've missed a few days due to the weather/not giving a fuck and it's making me fucking anxious. Why am I so crazy??? LET IT GO SELF. YOU RAN, IT'S ENOUGH. voice in head: you'll never get anywhere in life! you can't commit to shit! also you are fat! OMG WHY AM I SO CRAZY. I KNOW THESE ARE NOT GOOD THINGS TO THINK. WHY CAN I NOT STOP THINKING THEM
Every day/week/torturous lifetime is sooo up and down. I read a couple volumes of Yotsuba&! and felt cute as hell today driving to my mom's office because I had a braid in my hair (I LOVE BRAIDS) and I was spazzing out to Ted Leo's Bottled in Cork. I had a non-failure interaction with this dude at my mom's office (I 'helped' him find a client file for a James Brown, owww we felt good dunuhnuhnuhnuhnuh). Oh but by late afternoon I felt more like myself and right now I feel cold and hungry and tired.
I HAVE LITERALLY NOTHING ELSE TO TALK ABOUT. I CAN'T BELIEVE HOW MUCH I SUCK AS A PERSON. OMFG
ummmm I love Parks & Recreation. Leslie is my most best favorite!!!! I love her. And I seriously love how the show lets other people love her too. Like, Leslie is clearly a pure beam of light, and I love how the other characters recognize and respond to it. There's so much genuine understated affection on that show. <3___<3 LOL I am still waiting for Ben to prove that he is good enough for Leslie. Prove yourself, Adam Scott's Endearing Face. Also I am dying for Andy/April to work out. And Rob Lowe/Ann Perkins. It's a good thing that Rob Lowe seems to play that kind of character often, because he definitely should be THAT GUY all the time.
I've been running every other day for the past few weeks but I've missed a few days due to the weather/not giving a fuck and it's making me fucking anxious. Why am I so crazy??? LET IT GO SELF. YOU RAN, IT'S ENOUGH. voice in head: you'll never get anywhere in life! you can't commit to shit! also you are fat! OMG WHY AM I SO CRAZY. I KNOW THESE ARE NOT GOOD THINGS TO THINK. WHY CAN I NOT STOP THINKING THEM
Every day/week/torturous lifetime is sooo up and down. I read a couple volumes of Yotsuba&! and felt cute as hell today driving to my mom's office because I had a braid in my hair (I LOVE BRAIDS) and I was spazzing out to Ted Leo's Bottled in Cork. I had a non-failure interaction with this dude at my mom's office (I 'helped' him find a client file for a James Brown, owww we felt good dunuhnuhnuhnuhnuh). Oh but by late afternoon I felt more like myself and right now I feel cold and hungry and tired.
I HAVE LITERALLY NOTHING ELSE TO TALK ABOUT. I CAN'T BELIEVE HOW MUCH I SUCK AS A PERSON. OMFG
ummmm I love Parks & Recreation. Leslie is my most best favorite!!!! I love her. And I seriously love how the show lets other people love her too. Like, Leslie is clearly a pure beam of light, and I love how the other characters recognize and respond to it. There's so much genuine understated affection on that show. <3___<3 LOL I am still waiting for Ben to prove that he is good enough for Leslie. Prove yourself, Adam Scott's Endearing Face. Also I am dying for Andy/April to work out. And Rob Lowe/Ann Perkins. It's a good thing that Rob Lowe seems to play that kind of character often, because he definitely should be THAT GUY all the time.
So I guess this is my life, staying up till 5 AM watching the Evan 'brobot' Lysacek portion of Dancing With the Stars on youtube. Oh dumb orange bro, you're so dumb, and so orange, and such a bro, yet so endearing. Also his dance partner is seriously hot. She smiles so big! ilu Anna, u r amazing~~~
This is giving me flashbacks to when I huddled around my laptop for two weeks last year, obsessively watching So You Think You CanHas Cheezburger Dance* and suiciding my GPA into the center of the earth. I still love you, Pasha.
*THIS JOKE WILL NEVER GET OLD
This is giving me flashbacks to when I huddled around my laptop for two weeks last year, obsessively watching So You Think You Can
*THIS JOKE WILL NEVER GET OLD
It's only 2:20, it says it's on US Pacific time and Daylight Savings is set properly, so... I'm just going to manually change it.
GO BAAAAAAAAAAABY
UH OKAY personal life bullshit: that squishy-cute OkCupid guy from San Francisco and I are like eyeing each other I guess, and he wants to meet this weekend. Okay well that's not going to happen for a number of reasons. OH MY GOD WHY DID THIS HAVE TO HAPPEN SO FAST. I am not prepared! I am too skittish and without confidence. EXTREME TURN ONS AMIRITE. Long story short, I am making myself sick, thinking about this. And by making myself sick, I discover anew that I seriously hate myself. I AM UNBEARABLE. AUUUGHHH.
I fell while I was racing JJB (I AM A MATURE 21 YR OLD ADULT) and my knee hurts like a motherfuck. Gaaawddaaaaaaamn.
Great, now I am feeling all weepy and fucked up and sentimental. I don't want anything, and I don't want to want anything, except for how I want everything everything everything, since I was old enough to understand that I was allowed to want. Sometimes it's like I want everything so badly it's like I don't want anything at all. If I could just KNOW which way will turn out right, which way will make me into the person I'm supposed to be. But that's how everyone feels.
Things I love: Avatar. Fuck, people are not fucking around when they say the action is good. Holy hell. I was watching The Drill (season two, episode... somethingteen) and I was like "christ, this looks DAMN GOOD." The detailing, the way that it is so recognizable as real martial arts (well, apart from the obvious), it takes it all to another LEVEL YOU KNOW. I love the animation of Ty Lee, Azula, and Jet in particular. I love Sokka, I love Toph, I even love stupid useless Momo thanks to that mini Momo's Day story thing. (Also I kind of love Momo's stupid uselessness; animal sidekicks are like always clever and speshul, but Momo is just STUPID and USELESS. it is refreshing!!) I like Iroh and Zuko and all the random side villagers with their clothes from real places and eras (HANBOKS!! I SAW THEM!!!!). I like that Katara and Aang are genuinely likeable and amazing yet consistently irritating at times. I like that so many fight scenes in the second season involve girls, straight up legit. I respect Azula for being the HBIC. Bitch crazy. Repeat crazy love for world-building and continuity and amaaazing natural growth in depth and width of storyline and characterization. This show seriously blows my mind, it is SO UNNECESSARILY GOOD. OMG. In fact the only things I don't like about it so far is that library episode (because I felt sorry for the giant creepy owl) and that Mei person. ARGH I HATE HER. SHE IS SO ANNOYING.
Also I am hungry.
my dear lady disdain
Nov. 2nd, 2009 05:43 amby and large I dislike Shakespeare because I am dumb and it takes me like half an hour to read one page. also every character I like turns out to be doomed and/or fucking stupid, which is kind of frustrating. I mention this because I got a wild hair the other day to read Hamlet fic and well it's too bad that I am so dumb. I like Hamlet a lot, but it's not like I enjoy reading it, so I suppose it's the idea? I like Hamlet the character too, haw haw, surprise!
It is very weird, how memory works. Why on earth do we remember what we do? does what we remember shape who we are, or does who we are determine what we remember? both informing the other I suppose. but then again it's not as though people who don't have good memories are less somehow because of it. unless you take it to the extreme of Alzheimer's. at the moment I'm decided; if you don't remember, it's like it never happened. barring that no one tells you, because although then it becomes a story about yourself and the memory of the telling, it's still like it happened to you. though who knows if you never really remember things? the sub/unconscious, ~who knows. (okay probably there is a psychology textbook out there that can untangle all these mysterious mysteries but it is early in the morn and I'm awake for no reason.) what is the difference between forgetting and not remembering? remembering and not forgetting? AND STUFF.
I am reading Edith Wharton's The Age of Innocence very verrrrrrrrrry slowly. It's a good thing the version I have is so attractive (it's all square and slim and compact) otherwise I wouldn't've touched it. It's alright. It's all about High Society. I'm mostly reading it to prove that I can read something whose target audience isn't 12 - 14 year olds. LE SIGH.
It is very weird, how memory works. Why on earth do we remember what we do? does what we remember shape who we are, or does who we are determine what we remember? both informing the other I suppose. but then again it's not as though people who don't have good memories are less somehow because of it. unless you take it to the extreme of Alzheimer's. at the moment I'm decided; if you don't remember, it's like it never happened. barring that no one tells you, because although then it becomes a story about yourself and the memory of the telling, it's still like it happened to you. though who knows if you never really remember things? the sub/unconscious, ~who knows. (okay probably there is a psychology textbook out there that can untangle all these mysterious mysteries but it is early in the morn and I'm awake for no reason.) what is the difference between forgetting and not remembering? remembering and not forgetting? AND STUFF.
I am reading Edith Wharton's The Age of Innocence very verrrrrrrrrry slowly. It's a good thing the version I have is so attractive (it's all square and slim and compact) otherwise I wouldn't've touched it. It's alright. It's all about High Society. I'm mostly reading it to prove that I can read something whose target audience isn't 12 - 14 year olds. LE SIGH.
trick-or-treating went well btw
Nov. 1st, 2009 01:13 amDAYLIGHT SAVINGS TIME! Look at this extra 1 AM! I got it for free! shyeaaaaaaaaaaah
okay so I got high with my cousin and then we watched Revolutionary Road. It was pretty, especially Kate winslet, though I was distracted quite a bit by Leo Di'o's faaaaace many a time, but I remain hard-pressed to care about what happens in upper middle-class white 50s suburbia, EVEN loveless marriages! no idk I liked it but was unmoved by it. though apparently you have to be a ridiculous character on an idiot tv show to ~move me.
ok I sound like a townie but I'm not! I just have no life outside my family social circle, apart from like literally two people.
things that would be awesome for meee
Oct. 19th, 2009 02:07 am- if the Detective Inspector Chen/Snake Agent books were set in a multiracial society. nothing wrong with Snake Agent so far, but I was SO SUPER EXCITED to read it and after about ten pages my book boner had died away and I couldn't figure out my sudden apathy until! I realized! that I was expecting Detective Chen to be a DETECTIVE WHO IS ASIAN instead of an ASIAN DETECTIVE. like, you NEVER see Asian main characters to begin with, especially not as Lone Antiheroes... unless the entire world is Asian. not that I'm bitching about books being set in Asia, particularly books that aren't about a white hero in a strange land, saving strange people or whatever; it's just that I was REALLY looking forward to the story in my head. ps, fic has totes spoiled me; I'm all 'I think I've seen this worldbuilding done before, and kind of liked it better then.'
- if there was a long, super-funny SPN RPF fic with a romcom plot where, like, Misha Collins plotz to get Jared and some other person together (I was going to say the obvious Jensen, but then I realized that JENSEN AND DDAANNEELL (I double all the letters to make sure that I'm not misspelling it!!!11) could be in the background, being the wry and dorky straight-men couple. they would go on the cuuuutest dates everrrrrr like minigolfing and like ROLLER DERBYS and to each others apartments with take-out and sweatpants to watch some sort of sporting event on the television box. AGGHH CUUUUUUTE)... that parenthetical aside was too long, I have no idea what I was saying before. ummm Misha Collins, Matchmaker! oh Misha is all earnest shit-stirring mastermind with a COHORT who halps him out and is OBVIOUSLY in looove with him (ROMCOM PLOT ROMCOM PLOT ROMCLOM POT) but perhaps IS PINING because s/he thinks Misha doesn't even know how deeply in loooove he is with Jared. and in the end maybe Jared doesn't end up with anyone but he's strangely okay with that because he gets to just ~be~ or whatever with his dogs and his job and his endless array of ugly shirts. and then Misha is like 'my entire plotzing has been a waste, yet I don't regret any of it.........' and then he realizes that it's because HE HAS FALLEN IN LOVE WITH [INSERT COHORT HERE] and they make out and do the sex, whatever. WHO IS COHORT THOUGH??? alternatively, it could just be hilarious crack about Jared's bewildered suffering as Misha makes his life miserable because Misha's wife (why does crack!fic involve moar reality for me? idk) is working on her disseration or whatever and doesn't have as much time for him, aka cannot police his cheerful shit-stirring ways, and he is bored. I don't know what the point of this whole paragraph was except that MISHA COLLINS IS AMAZING AND IF I WERE A BIZARRE FICTIONAL DERIVATION OF A REAL PERSON* I WOULD BE PINING AFTER HIM LIKE NOBODY'S BUSINESS
*that is... IF I'M NOT ALREADY! noooo that is too Twilight Zone for me
- if Harry Potter was a girl. I don't care about fic; I literally mean if the whole series was about Harryita Potter or something. it would be cool. I think Harry is a GOOD KID!
-if Paul was a girl
- OMG SPN RPF BOARDING SCHOOL AU! NO NVM THAT IDEA SUCKS, I WAS JUST THINKING ABOUT MISHA COLLINS IN A SKINNY TIE WHICH, CASTIEL, SO WHATEVER
- ummm there was something else but I forgot.
logging context-free quotes
JJB: Yay! I won't have a destiny-filled poo!
me: You mean poo-filled destiny.
JJB: What if there was a guy who spent his whole life yearning and had to stay on the toilet forever?
me: What? Why does he have to be on the toilet?
JJB: Because he's peeing!
me: What is he yearning for? *at JJB's blank look* Yearning doesn't mean peeing!
JJB: Yes it does! Like that word for pee... urine...
me+mom: LOLOLOLOL
- if there was a long, super-funny SPN RPF fic with a romcom plot where, like, Misha Collins plotz to get Jared and some other person together (I was going to say the obvious Jensen, but then I realized that JENSEN AND DDAANNEELL (I double all the letters to make sure that I'm not misspelling it!!!11) could be in the background, being the wry and dorky straight-men couple. they would go on the cuuuutest dates everrrrrr like minigolfing and like ROLLER DERBYS and to each others apartments with take-out and sweatpants to watch some sort of sporting event on the television box. AGGHH CUUUUUUTE)... that parenthetical aside was too long, I have no idea what I was saying before. ummm Misha Collins, Matchmaker! oh Misha is all earnest shit-stirring mastermind with a COHORT who halps him out and is OBVIOUSLY in looove with him (ROMCOM PLOT ROMCOM PLOT ROMCLOM POT) but perhaps IS PINING because s/he thinks Misha doesn't even know how deeply in loooove he is with Jared. and in the end maybe Jared doesn't end up with anyone but he's strangely okay with that because he gets to just ~be~ or whatever with his dogs and his job and his endless array of ugly shirts. and then Misha is like 'my entire plotzing has been a waste, yet I don't regret any of it.........' and then he realizes that it's because HE HAS FALLEN IN LOVE WITH [INSERT COHORT HERE] and they make out and do the sex, whatever. WHO IS COHORT THOUGH??? alternatively, it could just be hilarious crack about Jared's bewildered suffering as Misha makes his life miserable because Misha's wife (why does crack!fic involve moar reality for me? idk) is working on her disseration or whatever and doesn't have as much time for him, aka cannot police his cheerful shit-stirring ways, and he is bored. I don't know what the point of this whole paragraph was except that MISHA COLLINS IS AMAZING AND IF I WERE A BIZARRE FICTIONAL DERIVATION OF A REAL PERSON* I WOULD BE PINING AFTER HIM LIKE NOBODY'S BUSINESS
*that is... IF I'M NOT ALREADY! noooo that is too Twilight Zone for me
- if Harry Potter was a girl. I don't care about fic; I literally mean if the whole series was about Harryita Potter or something. it would be cool. I think Harry is a GOOD KID!
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- OMG SPN RPF BOARDING SCHOOL AU! NO NVM THAT IDEA SUCKS, I WAS JUST THINKING ABOUT MISHA COLLINS IN A SKINNY TIE WHICH, CASTIEL, SO WHATEVER
- ummm there was something else but I forgot.
logging context-free quotes
JJB: Yay! I won't have a destiny-filled poo!
me: You mean poo-filled destiny.
JJB: What if there was a guy who spent his whole life yearning and had to stay on the toilet forever?
me: What? Why does he have to be on the toilet?
JJB: Because he's peeing!
me: What is he yearning for? *at JJB's blank look* Yearning doesn't mean peeing!
JJB: Yes it does! Like that word for pee... urine...
me+mom: LOLOLOLOL
post eclipse!
Jul. 23rd, 2009 05:05 amMcCartney II = RIDICULOUSLY awesome, except for the song called "Frozen Jap," which I have renamed "Frozen RACIAL SLUR" in my iTunes. I found ONE interview (here) where someone asks him about it and his explanation is not too bad. Basically, "Frozen Jap," "jap" being an abbreviation of "Japan... Japanese winter... Mt. Fuji... ~Orientalness~," was a working title that stuck. In Europe (at the time? I'm not sure how it is now) the word wasn't too terrible, so he only heard protests after the album came out. He changed the title for the Japanese edition to "Frozen Japanese." I can believe this. It's definitely damage control, but I buy it. I did some (shallow) research and there are indeed regional differences in how offensive the word is. Like in most of Asia, today at least, "Jap" is an acceptable abbreviation for "Japan/Japanese" so... yeah. It's enough to make me feel better. It's good that I found this interview and someone fucking asked about it; I was going crazy for a while. "He wouldn't have called it that if he knew how it's a RACIAL SLUR in some parts of the world... but how could he not know?!? OMMMGGGGG WHAT IS THIS FUCKERY?!?" Racial insensitivity is a pretty big fucking dealbreaker for me. Paul doesn't have a history of it, more the opposite actually, but yeah, fuck, Paul McCartney, why couldn't you have saved me the heartache and called it "Frozen Polar Bear" or SOME fucking thing?? Or I wish he would've changed the song title completely, not just for the Japanese version. Well, seeing how I only found ONE interview where someone addressed it, I guess it was not a big enough deal to merit the change. Urgh argh oorgh.
I have a midterm due tomorrow and it's pretty bullshit. Like "write an essay that addresses all parts of a really broad topic in one-page-double-spaced" bullshit. That's not an essay, that's a fucking short answer. The readings are boring and dry and full of a lot of nothing, much like my boring, dry, full of a lot of nothing professor. This MacKinnon person is fucking tiresome. There are like 10 pages of her explaining why all previous work on the subject has been WRONG WRONG WRONG. Jesus, just fucking explain why you're RIGHT or just fucking say what exactly you're adding to the fucking discussion. People are, like, always on the defensive in academia. At least in the social sciences. ~MYYYY perspective is necessary because everyone else thus far has neglected the most IMPORTANT PART EVER!!~ But whereas some writers limit this to the first page or so, MacKinnon just goes onnnnnnnnn and onnnnnnnnnnnnn and onnnnnnnnnnn. And she's uses words like "concomitant" (adj.; existing or occuring with something else; concurrent) and "detumescence" (n.; reduction or subsidence of swelling) and "sui generis" (adj.; of his, her, its, or their own kind; unique) when she could've just said "I am ostentatious as fuck" and "I have poor sentence construction and leave pronouns hanging around willy-nilly without any referrents" and "SORRY YOU'RE NOT GETTING ANY SLEEP BECAUSE OF MY WRETCHED ESSAY." Yeah, me too.
Some guy in my co-op is into 10 year olds who wear corrective boots, I guess, because he hit on me while I walking out of my aparment. At first I was really confused, all OMG DID I DO SOMETHING WRONG? WHY ARE YOU TALKING TO ME? Because he just came out of nowhere and was like "do you live there?" I was all "omg I'm sorry I put the regular trash in one of the recycling bins that one time, I couldn't find the bin for the regular trash!!" but then he just uh started hitting on me? He asked if he could ~knock on my door~ sometime and I just said uhhhh okay because I was flustered as hell. WTF I look like a middle schooler. And I'm wearing a boot! Guys, I don't know if I'm okay with pedo boot-fetishists. (The exchange wasn't as creepy as I made it sound btw, I am just scared of people. And LIFE!)
LOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOLLLLLLLLLLLLOMG
Nov. 18th, 2008 03:55 amI JUST FOUND THE ONTD SUPERTROLL SUNDAY POST
I AM DYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYINNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNGGGGGG
http://community.livejournal.com/ohnotheydidnt/29802112.html?page=5#comments
LOOOOOOL I AM DYING DYING DYING
TWILIGHT IS THE SARAH PALIN OF LITERATURE OMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMG
I AM DYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYINNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNGGGGGG
http://community.livejournal.com/ohnotheydidnt/29802112.html?page=5#comments
LOOOOOOL I AM DYING DYING DYING
TWILIGHT IS THE SARAH PALIN OF LITERATURE OMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMG
DON'T TOY WITH ME, JEFFREY TAMBOR
Nov. 13th, 2008 05:17 amIF YOU SAY THE ARRESTED DEVELOPMENT MOVIE IS "A GO" IT HAD BETTER BE GOING A GOING
ALSO MICHAEL CERA SO HELP ME GOD, YOU HAD BETTER HAVE BEEN TAKEN OUT OF CONTEXT WHEN YOU SAID YOU WEREN'T INTERESTED
http://community.livejournal.com/ohnotheydidnt/29664678.html
LOL I love ontd and Arrested Development fans, it's a critical mass of awesome. Every comment in that post is like the inside of my heart. I REALLY CAN'T WAIT ANY LONGER EITHER, FIRST COMMENT!! PLEASE BE TRUE
I know that it's 5 AM , I can spend an hour laughing at every other sentence I read on ontd if I want. IT'S NOT LIKE I HAVE A 10 PAGE PAPER DUE OR ANYTHING.
ALSO MICHAEL CERA SO HELP ME GOD, YOU HAD BETTER HAVE BEEN TAKEN OUT OF CONTEXT WHEN YOU SAID YOU WEREN'T INTERESTED
http://community.livejournal.com/ohnotheydidnt/29664678.html
LOL I love ontd and Arrested Development fans, it's a critical mass of awesome. Every comment in that post is like the inside of my heart. I REALLY CAN'T WAIT ANY LONGER EITHER, FIRST COMMENT!! PLEASE BE TRUE
I know that it's 5 AM , I can spend an hour laughing at every other sentence I read on ontd if I want. IT'S NOT LIKE I HAVE A 10 PAGE PAPER DUE OR ANYTHING.
I SHOULD TEACH A CLASS ON SELF-SABOTAGE
I AM AN EXPERT
(OR SEXPERT AMIRITE)
(NO)
I AM AN EXPERT
(OR SEXPERT AMIRITE)
(NO)
WELL I WOKE UP EARLIER THAN I HAD TO TODAY BECAUSE OF THE COUSELLOR THING AND I WAS SORT OF TIRED ALL DAY (LOL WHEN AM I NOT TIRED) SO I WAS LIKE I'LL TAKE A NAP SOON BUT THEN IT GOT TOO LATE TO TAKE A NAP SO I WAS LIKE I'LL SLEEP EARLY BUT THEN IT GOT ALL 3:38 AM
COUSELLORS OPEN --> 8:30
I NEED TO GET UP --> 7:45
I WILL GET --> :( HRS OF SLEEP
LIKE OKAY THIS IS NOT A BIG DEAL ON ITS OWN BUT IT IS CLEARLY INDICATIVE OF HOW THE REST OF THE YEAR IS GOING TO GO (I SAY THIS AS IF I HAVE NO CONTROL OVER IT, WHICH FYI I DON'T!!!!!!!!!!!! I AM A PAWN IN THE GAME OF LIFE THAT GOD PLAYS WITH HIS GIANT PEEN LOL WHAT WHO SAID THAT) AND I HAVE NEITHER HOAP NOR SOAP
AND I JUST DOWNLOADED A FUCKLOAD OF STUFF HOLY CATS, LIKE AT LEAST 400 MB AND AUUUGHHH I DON'T KNOW WHAT ELSE TO PURGE, MY MUSIC COLLECTION IS SERIOUSLY OFF THE RAILS I NEED IT TO DEVELOP AN TERRIBLE AND SCARRING EATING DISORDER
AND I DIDN'T EVEN GET THE SONG I REALLY REALLY WANTED (DISNEY'S A COWBOY NEEDS A HORSE BTW)
OMG I'M DROWWWWNING
COUSELLORS OPEN --> 8:30
I NEED TO GET UP --> 7:45
I WILL GET --> :( HRS OF SLEEP
LIKE OKAY THIS IS NOT A BIG DEAL ON ITS OWN BUT IT IS CLEARLY INDICATIVE OF HOW THE REST OF THE YEAR IS GOING TO GO (I SAY THIS AS IF I HAVE NO CONTROL OVER IT, WHICH FYI I DON'T!!!!!!!!!!!! I AM A PAWN IN THE GAME OF LIFE THAT GOD PLAYS WITH HIS GIANT PEEN LOL WHAT WHO SAID THAT) AND I HAVE NEITHER HOAP NOR SOAP
AND I JUST DOWNLOADED A FUCKLOAD OF STUFF HOLY CATS, LIKE AT LEAST 400 MB AND AUUUGHHH I DON'T KNOW WHAT ELSE TO PURGE, MY MUSIC COLLECTION IS SERIOUSLY OFF THE RAILS I NEED IT TO DEVELOP AN TERRIBLE AND SCARRING EATING DISORDER
AND I DIDN'T EVEN GET THE SONG I REALLY REALLY WANTED (DISNEY'S A COWBOY NEEDS A HORSE BTW)
OMG I'M DROWWWWNING
lay down that groove
Sep. 16th, 2008 02:12 amI feel like an unhip loser! Sometimes when I search for things on hype machine, I really get quite irritated at all the REMIXES. Why are there so many? Why can't they just leave a song alone? And then I download them hesitantly and I am a person that does not even know what beats are (how does one drop them, for example?) so I listen to it thinking, but what's the point? if they wanted something to dance to, why couldn't they just dance to the Spice Girls or something? ALSO remixes tend to be HUGE. Like what the fuck, why is it 12 MB for a fucking 4 minute song?? >( ALSO I don't like how everyone capitalizes 'remix' in the song title. It's like when people capitalize 'live' or 'cover.'
:9 I guess this is what it would look like if you had a paper clip for a mouf.
edit: if your face was in Arial size 10 font face. If it is is Verdana then it looks like you're licking your chops. And now you know~~!
Still cleaning out my pictures folder. I'M SO AMUSED BY MY FILENAMES. What a lametard. Whatever, I'm going to list them anyway.
:9 I guess this is what it would look like if you had a paper clip for a mouf.
edit: if your face was in Arial size 10 font face. If it is is Verdana then it looks like you're licking your chops. And now you know~~!
Still cleaning out my pictures folder. I'M SO AMUSED BY MY FILENAMES. What a lametard. Whatever, I'm going to list them anyway.
he think, i hate everyone
sigh my life
i could be at home doing my dishes
i know that i already have this picture, shutup it's in a different size
he thinks i want to get out of here
OH GOD
OH MY GOD
OH MY GOD AGAIN
i refuse to like you, jiggly, you can't make me
pay attn jiggly
SMILE ALI LARTER
yeah whatever jiggly! you're toeing a fine line!
sigh my life
i could be at home doing my dishes
i know that i already have this picture, shutup it's in a different size
he thinks i want to get out of here
OH GOD
OH MY GOD
OH MY GOD AGAIN
i refuse to like you, jiggly, you can't make me
pay attn jiggly
SMILE ALI LARTER
yeah whatever jiggly! you're toeing a fine line!
Alright that's enough.
LOOL, ontd post on the Killers. "thank god brandon is hot again" He looks way young without the pornstache. Actually his face looks off-balance now without it. Oh bflow what are you doing to me. "god, i hope they go back to normal" I don't understand, this implies that they were normal to begin with. I liked Sam's Town!
I still think the Killers and Kanye West should ~collaborate~. They could go on some kind of Megadouches Who Make Good Music tour. Then maybe they would both get all the awards they rightfully deserve!!!!!!111 El oh el Kanye West. El oh el bflow. They are both so incredibly over-the-top douchey that it loops around to being ENDEARING and lulzy. Kanye West's blog is such a beautiful jewel of the desert omg. Don't ever let them change you fellas.
I'm getting pretty tired of male voices in all this indie music, but typically when there's a female vocalist~, they sound like Emily Haines of Metric and ughhhhhhh NO. Or they're like... otherwise ugh. TBH I don't know what I'm complaining about here. Ugh I'm just cranky because I want some more Friday Bridge and I can't find it anywhere. I really like her. My sister thinks her voice is hella annoying and I totally understand, but I find it so charming and everything about her music feels so clean and perfectly crafted, but in a sweet delicious un-douchenautical way.
Right obvs I don't have anything to actually talk about. Not that that's new, but well, particularly for this occasion. I'm going back to school this week and it is making me cry tears of blood at every moment of silence I have to myself.
LOOL, ontd post on the Killers. "thank god brandon is hot again" He looks way young without the pornstache. Actually his face looks off-balance now without it. Oh bflow what are you doing to me. "god, i hope they go back to normal" I don't understand, this implies that they were normal to begin with. I liked Sam's Town!
I still think the Killers and Kanye West should ~collaborate~. They could go on some kind of Megadouches Who Make Good Music tour. Then maybe they would both get all the awards they rightfully deserve!!!!!!111 El oh el Kanye West. El oh el bflow. They are both so incredibly over-the-top douchey that it loops around to being ENDEARING and lulzy. Kanye West's blog is such a beautiful jewel of the desert omg. Don't ever let them change you fellas.
I'm getting pretty tired of male voices in all this indie music, but typically when there's a female vocalist~, they sound like Emily Haines of Metric and ughhhhhhh NO. Or they're like... otherwise ugh. TBH I don't know what I'm complaining about here. Ugh I'm just cranky because I want some more Friday Bridge and I can't find it anywhere. I really like her. My sister thinks her voice is hella annoying and I totally understand, but I find it so charming and everything about her music feels so clean and perfectly crafted, but in a sweet delicious un-douchenautical way.
Right obvs I don't have anything to actually talk about. Not that that's new, but well, particularly for this occasion. I'm going back to school this week and it is making me cry tears of blood at every moment of silence I have to myself.
days that are over
Sep. 6th, 2008 03:18 amI'm so tired that I can't sleep. You know, you walk around all day with that scratchy weariness but when you lie down and try to sleep your heart is going crazy, jumping around, still trying to keep you awake. Thanks, body, I really need to feel like I'm going to die like a rabbit. Ughh just let go, I am telling you that it is okay!! I WANT TO SLEEP. RELAX GODDAMNIT.
alec baldwin asks, r u 4 real
Aug. 28th, 2008 02:06 pmYES, Alec Baldwin, I am INDEED "4 real"!!
THINGS TO DO WHEN YOU CANNOT FALL ASLEEP AT NIGHT:
THINK OF WORDS YOU CAN BRO
brofro
pull out the wedding broto album
brobots in disguise
bromotion
broposal
brototype
brocomotive
broing it way out of broportion
THINGS TO DO WHEN YOU CANNOT FALL ASLEEP AT NIGHT:
THINK OF WORDS YOU CAN BRO
brofro
pull out the wedding broto album
brobots in disguise
bromotion
broposal
brototype
brocomotive
broing it way out of broportion
sneeze! sneeze! sneeze! and demolish!
Jun. 23rd, 2008 10:22 pmOMFG what the hell did I do this whole day? I woke up at noon and then did absolutely nothing for 10 hours I guess!! That isn't out of the ordinary for me or anything (LOL ~a masterpiece of understatement~) but goddamn today was excruciating. Alyssa's gone for a week, including no cell phone or internet communication, so I was already looooonely, and it increased to being a needy paranoid whackjob. I've played a lot of Text Twist. I am getting better verrrrrrry sloooooowwwwly.
I just now ate 6 Pizza Bagels and a brownie with two glasses of milk. O WRY AM I GAINING WAIGHT, THIS IS SUCH A MYSTERY!!111
LMAO Yahoo. Headline: "iPhone makes them angry". LOLOLOL seriously, Yahoo? That's only almost as good as the one from a few days ago, "Poll: Many Americans annoyed by coworkers".
I am obsessed with keeping the plastic water... thing in our refrigerator full. Whenever it is not completely full I freak out and fill it up to the top again. My contribution to the household~
Facebook/Text Twist is the stupid whore of the day! Thanks for freezing up on me and making me lose my longest streak ever, asshole. Fuck you very much.
I'm pretty sure that I can listen to Death Cab's I Will Follow You Into the Dark like 10 times in a row before I get tired of it. You did good, Ben Gibbard. You did good. *orchestral swell of music*
Proof of genius: D S = Dana Sue. I didn't even mean to do that! Goddamn I want a medal or something.
You know what we need you guys? A game of Monopoly to make everyone resent each other!!!! Am I kidding?? Who knows?? Monopoly is only fun if everyone is on an even keel, so as soon as a clear winner emerges, we should STOP. Then only the winner is resentful; everyone else is happy that they got out before they had to sell off their railroads and shit.
Fear is the heart of love~ BGibbs, if I heard that at Catholic school, I would leave too, even though it sounds real pretty when you sing it! Oh man I can't really think about any of the lyrics because if I do, it will break me. The first time I heard the first four lines were enough to make my heart all squeeze-pulley. What can you do with so much love? It carries you across rivers. It takes you above bravery, it makes you true. OH MY GOD NOW I AM CRYING A LITTLE. I HAVE TO STOP LISTENING TO THIS SONG.
Ew I was washing a pan (no better time to do the dishes than 3 AM) and it was mad greasy.
WHELL IT'S 4:40 AND I'M STILL AWAKE. O I C.
I just now ate 6 Pizza Bagels and a brownie with two glasses of milk. O WRY AM I GAINING WAIGHT, THIS IS SUCH A MYSTERY!!111
LMAO Yahoo. Headline: "iPhone makes them angry". LOLOLOL seriously, Yahoo? That's only almost as good as the one from a few days ago, "Poll: Many Americans annoyed by coworkers".
I am obsessed with keeping the plastic water... thing in our refrigerator full. Whenever it is not completely full I freak out and fill it up to the top again. My contribution to the household~
Facebook/Text Twist is the stupid whore of the day! Thanks for freezing up on me and making me lose my longest streak ever, asshole. Fuck you very much.
I'm pretty sure that I can listen to Death Cab's I Will Follow You Into the Dark like 10 times in a row before I get tired of it. You did good, Ben Gibbard. You did good. *orchestral swell of music*
Proof of genius: D S = Dana Sue. I didn't even mean to do that! Goddamn I want a medal or something.
You know what we need you guys? A game of Monopoly to make everyone resent each other!!!! Am I kidding?? Who knows?? Monopoly is only fun if everyone is on an even keel, so as soon as a clear winner emerges, we should STOP. Then only the winner is resentful; everyone else is happy that they got out before they had to sell off their railroads and shit.
Fear is the heart of love~ BGibbs, if I heard that at Catholic school, I would leave too, even though it sounds real pretty when you sing it! Oh man I can't really think about any of the lyrics because if I do, it will break me. The first time I heard the first four lines were enough to make my heart all squeeze-pulley. What can you do with so much love? It carries you across rivers. It takes you above bravery, it makes you true. OH MY GOD NOW I AM CRYING A LITTLE. I HAVE TO STOP LISTENING TO THIS SONG.
Ew I was washing a pan (no better time to do the dishes than 3 AM) and it was mad greasy.
WHELL IT'S 4:40 AND I'M STILL AWAKE. O I C.
my sleeping patterns are performance art
Aug. 17th, 2007 05:26 amI said it once and I'll say it again, being into anime/manga/non-English fandom is HARD. Very difficult to find good fic. You have to rabbit around everywhere and put up with a lot of dreck.
BLEACH. I love Kubo Tite's art so much (SO MUCH), if only for the first book with Ichigo's t-shirts and skinny jeans and Rukia's super tiny awesomeness. It goes beyond the first book obvs but that first book, man, I imprinted on it harddd. I should catch up. SIGH. I hope he's gotten over his weird art stage by now. I like the fine-lines pls.
I have true appreciation for series that really mindfuck their main characters, as long as they do it right from the get-go. If they do it midway through I can't handle it.
You know what's stupid? CLAMP and Tsubasa Reservoir Chronicle, that's what. The art has deteriorated completely. Ugh storyline. Whatever. Vampire. WHATEVER!!!! Too bad X had such great art. XXXHolic has really great art too, and Yuuko, so that puts it above a lot of things. What am I talking about now.
HEY remember when I liked Faust VIII and Shaman King? Hoo boy.
There should be a new Saiyuki every month instead of this every whenever-we-damn-well-please nonsense Tokyopop is on. They don't even bother writing the month the next book is supposed to be out anymore.
Video game fandom confuses me but I forge on ahead anyway because I thought FF7: Advent Children was really pretty. THAT IS ALL I EVER, EVER NEED.
I love AUs. I do.
Tempestuous relationships:
Computer: Low Battery. You should change your battery or switch to outlet power immediately to keep from losing your work.
Me: You should shut your dirty whorish mouth!!!!!
My sister and I had like a three hour conversation today. Some of it was thoughtful, like gender-feminism stuff and race stuff and media stuff, but my FAVOOOOORITE parts were when we talked about what we liked!! Like so:
Me: I like it when boys wear t-shirts!
Her: I like wrists!
Me: Skinny ties!
Her: Scarves with winter hats!
Me: Skirts!
Her: Flats!
Me: Long legs on girls!
Her: Suits!
Me and Her: NO MUSTACHES
If you think I'm exaggerating you don't know us very well.
(For the record:
girl redheads, people with dark hair and light eyes, long-limbed girls - dancer's build, guys with fine-boned/delicate bone structure, skinny guys, blonde ladies, freckles, coats. And I think muttonchops are some of the most hideous physical ailments known to man. The conversation was a lot longer than just listing though because we kept giggling and trying to think of specific examples.)
BLEACH. I love Kubo Tite's art so much (SO MUCH), if only for the first book with Ichigo's t-shirts and skinny jeans and Rukia's super tiny awesomeness. It goes beyond the first book obvs but that first book, man, I imprinted on it harddd. I should catch up. SIGH. I hope he's gotten over his weird art stage by now. I like the fine-lines pls.
I have true appreciation for series that really mindfuck their main characters, as long as they do it right from the get-go. If they do it midway through I can't handle it.
You know what's stupid? CLAMP and Tsubasa Reservoir Chronicle, that's what. The art has deteriorated completely. Ugh storyline. Whatever. Vampire. WHATEVER!!!! Too bad X had such great art. XXXHolic has really great art too, and Yuuko, so that puts it above a lot of things. What am I talking about now.
HEY remember when I liked Faust VIII and Shaman King? Hoo boy.
There should be a new Saiyuki every month instead of this every whenever-we-damn-well-please nonsense Tokyopop is on. They don't even bother writing the month the next book is supposed to be out anymore.
Video game fandom confuses me but I forge on ahead anyway because I thought FF7: Advent Children was really pretty. THAT IS ALL I EVER, EVER NEED.
I love AUs. I do.
Tempestuous relationships:
Computer: Low Battery. You should change your battery or switch to outlet power immediately to keep from losing your work.
Me: You should shut your dirty whorish mouth!!!!!
My sister and I had like a three hour conversation today. Some of it was thoughtful, like gender-feminism stuff and race stuff and media stuff, but my FAVOOOOORITE parts were when we talked about what we liked!! Like so:
Me: I like it when boys wear t-shirts!
Her: I like wrists!
Me: Skinny ties!
Her: Scarves with winter hats!
Me: Skirts!
Her: Flats!
Me: Long legs on girls!
Her: Suits!
Me and Her: NO MUSTACHES
If you think I'm exaggerating you don't know us very well.
(For the record:
girl redheads, people with dark hair and light eyes, long-limbed girls - dancer's build, guys with fine-boned/delicate bone structure, skinny guys, blonde ladies, freckles, coats. And I think muttonchops are some of the most hideous physical ailments known to man. The conversation was a lot longer than just listing though because we kept giggling and trying to think of specific examples.)
